What Allison Said | ✔️

all

you're awake.

no one told me you were awake.

you smile at me and my heart aches.

it's small, because your skin is damaged and it won't allow you to grin

but i can see how happy you are to see me in your eyes.

"allison," you say,

and your voice is rough and scratchy,

like the words are catching in your throat,

but you force them out anyway.

"allison. you came. i..."

you cough and my chest tightens in alarm.

"i was waiting for you to come."

"of course i came parker. they wouldn't let me, but i came."

you look at me, your eyes wide and filled with confusion, "why? why would you break the rules for me?"

suddenly

i'm filled with anger.

anger that you're in here,

anger that you have to ask that question,

anger that i never told you just how much i care.

and before i can stop it,

the answer is bubbling out of me

fuelled by a flame burning inside,

that fizzes like potassium in water,

before it catches light and implodes into the atmosphere.

"because, parker! because i love you!"

you stare at me.

i breathe.

then you do.

turn about, like we're waiting on each other's oxygen.

"allison."

a tear runs down my cheek, even though i swore i wouldn't cry.

"allison. god, allison. come here."

you take me in your arms, and hold me tight, and i pretend.

i pretend that for one minute,

just one,

that you're not broken.

and i'm not.

and we're just two people,

holding on as the world falls apart.

"allison," you whisper again, "allison emily foster, i love you so fucking much."

and i'm not pretending,

not anymore,

because you said it, when i didn't think you would,

and now i'm soaring above everything

because not even peter pan has ever felt so invincible.