I asked to put your number down.
You said of course.
I asked if you would text me throughout the week. So I knew how you were doing when I got out. No focus on me at all.
Pills. I'm sorry for taking them. I'm sorry for the scare.
I called twice, you didn't pick up.
You never called back. Or called me in the first place.
My mind knew then you stopped caring you stopped loving.
I knew before turning on my phone.
I had made my decision then when the light lit up my screen.
Deep down, I started to realize, you were done giving me the same energy.
Then my spark for you began to fizzle out.
Feeling let down & alone. I let you go.
& again I knew you wouldn't fight for me. That it was time to fight alone.
See that's okay though.
I've grown used to the emptiness.
It's everything I've ever known.
-Lei
