The unknown

GROWING UP

How does it feels like to be grown?
Actually, how do you really know that you are all grown? Is it because our age is increasing?
What is actually growing up?
Is it something that we all need to do?

A question that I ask myself not that often but has wondered.
That eventually I figured, that 
It is growing as person. As individuals. 
Is learning and have experiences. Is learning how to be mature.

But Do we really need to do all of this?

Grow up and feel like I didn't belong to where i was. Grow up In this system this way of living. It felt like I didn't have a specific group where I could identify myself in. A group where i can see my similarities trough out other people. Similarities that I wouldn't be ashamed or embarrassed to share. Have things in common and have conversations about them.
But to me non of it was making any sense. Because I didn't mind being alone just by myself. And the weird thing about it is that It didn't feel like an outcast. Why ? Because i never had that specific feeling. That feeling of being outcast or the desperate feeling to want to belong somewhere just to tell. That just wasn't me.
The more i think about it now, I know that if it wasn't for those alone moments I wouldn't be where i am today.
With this mindset. A different way of thinking.
With so may thoughts running through my head that I couldn't keep up with anything else.
Growing up with them made me realize that not every bad situation that you're putted into is a curse. It makes you see things definitely on the long run. You learn from them and you learn how to grow with them. And eventually you'll realize how mature you've become.

What really means growing up? To me ?
Despite all the lack of information about life we had growing up, we do have growth.
We go to school to be educated  on things, people, past, science, you name it. But the only one thing that school doesn't educate us about,Is life.
At the same time Life on itself isn't that hard like everyone make it seems. It is the decisions you make, make it not difficult or hard but misunderstood. There is a lot of things we do growing up or things we has been told and experienced that stick with us until we grow old. Some of the things are nice and some are bad or even confusing. But as soon as we get older we understand them better.
Those little details that stick with us. 
I'm not sure how many of them we got al figured it out but it's all part of the process.
How many times we has been told what to do and what not to do? How many of us got our ass wooped when we we're kids just being kids by doing the wrong thing according to our parents. Because here is the thing about what's right and what wrong, we don't know exactly what's right or wrong. We just asume that the things we think is wrong, go against our norms and values And as soon you go against that, you're wrong.
People are the one who makes the rules. Is has never been said that these are the exact rules that we have to follow because people made them.
And to be honest there're rules that don't make sense, but we all follow them anyway. Because that's how this world, this society works. We need a form of discipline in this world and that's why we have rules and laws that protect us from the bad.

Speaking of bad
We all think that there's bad people in this world.
But
Growing is also understanding that not every person is bad.
They are just miss understood.
They are humans with bad decisions.

Not every person that wants to help you have good the intentions.
Not every decisions you make is wrong. And not every thing you hear is true.
Definitely nobody's life is perfect.
Growing up understanding that Every dream is possible and
That love is worth waited for.
Because eventually
All of this
is part
of
growing up.