In My Skin ( Completed)

Chapter 18

Destiny is up above or to the side

Destiny~

I haven't ate in 3 days I'm hurt and angry. Nothing is going right from all i know my boyfriend cheated on me, i lose my best friend , my grandparent are dead. I'm so tired of life I'm giving up and I'm not trying again

Thoughts ran though my head your so stupid that's why your mother never liked you. You so fuckin fat , guys will never want you. Layla is better than you she won fat bitch

Your so stupid. Tameka is so much better than you . As you can see dumb bitch Justice doesn't love you he loves Meka . Your so stupid

I go into my panties draw and go under some panties and get my razor. I take off my clothes and run a warm bath for myself. I look into the mirror my hair is on top of my head , I've gotten fatter. Plus my eyes are red

Thoughts about when i was little came into my mind

" look at you I'm better than you" jazmine said circling me

" your so ugly your mom should of throwin you out" sticking her tongue out

"i never liked you . your too dark for me" Tyler said shaking his head

Everyone stared at me and laughed at me as i ran away crying. That day i came home

"bitch come here" my mom said

" yes" I said with my head down

"you fat bitch eating up all my food" she yelled

"I'm sorry all i had was a pop tart" with my head down

"you eat enough at school fat bitch go to your room" my mom yelled breaking dishes

I would have bruises on my arms cause she beat me. Then my step father would laugh and lock the door leaving me to cry myself to sleep . i couldn't sleep cause i would hear moans and banging . I cried myself to sleep wanting to die

I open the mirror and i take five pills i don't know what they are but their drugs. I step into the tub and i take the razor i cut Layla name into my arm. Then i need Devon name next to hers . Then i did Tameka's and Justice names on my right. It hurted so badly but everything was coming together . My eyes were closing i wanted to die but then justice busted the door down then i heard him calling someone

Tameka ~

My phone kept going off it was 2 am i really wanted to let it ring but i picked it up

" what the hell you want ?" I yell

" Destiny is in the hospital there saying she wont make it" justice say near tears

My world came to an end. Destiny was all i had left she was there. Trey held me as tears were rolling down my face as I sat up in bed hugging my knees .

Justice ~

I messed up so badly the one who i loved is in the hospital. i had my hands on my head

"Sir" the doctor says

" yes" lifting my head from my hands

" she is fine but she needs to stay over night" the doctors says looking at his clip board

"okay thank you" I say

I started to cry loudly i didn't mean to but i was so hurt. I messed up so badly why did i do that. why ?

" Justice ?" She says groggily

She opened her beautiful brown eyes i ran over and hugged her.

" I'm so sorry . i should of never had Chanel over she was my friend we were watching movies . Plus i let you walk away forgive me please baby" justice pleads

"i already did" she says looking up

Can i get some comments please ?

What should i change ?

What am i doing right ?

Have you felt this way ?

Can i get 2 or more comments please ? Not updating until then

Hey everyone its me again ....... I've gotten so many reads and I'm happy of course. But I'm looking for comments and you're makes things so much easier so can I get anybody to comment my goal is 5 comment and I won't be updating until then . I know y'all be voting yeah keep doing that but comment to . I wanna know what y'all think about this chapter and rest of the 17 other chapters

Xoxo Destinee