Shawn M

Everything has an end

„What?" He snickers, attempting to pry it off my face but me being me, I quickly put my hand on my lap before he could touch it. I swallow the muffin and cross my arms.

„Don't stare at me when I eat." I huff but he just smiles this heart melting smile. If he knew what that does to me... "You are so cute." Shawn murmurs, causing my stomach to go crazy. I've never felt like this around someone.

The simplest things he does or says, make my heart beat faster or my mind go blank. Not knowing how to respond I take the last bite of my muffin, hoping he would finally stop to watch me so intensely but he doesn't.

Stop being so nervous! He is just a person. No need to freak out. As I turn my head into his direction to tell him once again that he should stop staring, his face is suddenly only some inches away from mine anymore.

„Just slap me if you don't like it. I can't resist anymore." Shawn whispers, his warm hand finding my neck while the other one is placed on my side to stop me from scooting back.

Before I could even react, I feel his soft lips on mine. Gently kissing me, making fireworks explode in my stomach but I had to concentrate on something else.

Out of shock I sucked in a breath, causing me to choke on the piece muffin I hadn't swallowed yet. Coughing, I push him back as I try not to suffocate.

„Y/N? What's wro- Oh, oh my god. Wait, let me help." Shawn rambles as he realizes that I'm till coughing badly. He carefully hits my back until I could somewhat breath normally again.

Exhausted, I lean against the backrest of the bench, my hand over my now hurting stomach. "Oh my..." I breath out. F*ck... that's embarrassing. I probably look like a tomato right now. Well done, Y/n! You just made a complete fool out of yourself!

„Are you okey? I'm so sorry, I-." "It's not your fault, Shawn. I just didn't swallow all of the muffin yet." I laugh awkwardly, sitting up straight and smooth out my dress so I don't have to make eye contact with him.

At least my face is too red to let him see how badly my cheeks are flushed. He just wanted to kiss me and I almost couldn't breath anymore. God... he must think I'm so weird now...

A wave of relief washes over me as I finally hear a chuckle escape him, making me look over. „I should have thought about that. I'm sorry again." He apologizes, scratching his neck.

„Don't worry." I smile, still cursing myself for being so shocked about what he wanted to do. I'm so stupid... This time, the silence is kinda... tense. I glance over at Shawn to see him staring at the some spot on the grass, fumbling with the silver ring on his finger.

Does he want to leave? I bet he does... why else would he be so quiet? He's usually not shy at all. Should I say something? Yeah, I probably should.

„I mean, who doesn't want to tell the story about almost choking to death because of their first kiss?" I laugh but as soon as I realize what I just said, my smile fades. Great. Really great.

My face turns beet red once again and the fact that Shawn still hasn't spoken anything makes me want to disappear into the ground. F*ck! What's wrong with me? He definitely thinks I am weird now.

„Wait, did you say first kiss?" I finally hear his surprised sounding voice. Nervously, I play with the end of my dress nodding lightly. "Yeah..." I mumble, trying to avoid looking  at him as he attempts to make me look at him by turning my head with his fingers.

„You never kissed someone before? No way." Sighing, I move back a bit due him being pretty close but he immediately comes closer again. "It's the truth." I shrug, gazing onto my shoes while wishing I never opened my damn mouth.