My dad came and picked me up and took me home. I told him what had happened and he was very angry.
As soon as we got home i ran to my bedroom and hid away from everything. I tried to not think about what my mum had said but i know that it will haunt me forever. I could hear my dad on the phone shouting, but i tried to ignore everything.
My world is falling apart.
I'm a mess. My mum and dad are divorced because of me. I've been a dissapointment since i was young. My mum hates me. People pity me. I havent uploaded a video in ages.
i started to cry hysterically and held my legs close to my chest and tucked my head away. I thought of Alfie and was about to call him...but i could'nt, I cant keep going to him when i have a problem.
I found myself looking for something under my bed and pulled out a long box with my name on it. It was pink and had stickers and glitter all over it. When i was in high school this is where i kept my drink and as i got older i hid my cigerettes and drugs in there too. One time when i had my friend round she gave me some cigerettes and also gave me a blade. She told me that if i ever need it, that its a good escape. I never thought i would ever use it.
I pulled the blade from the box and hovered it upon my wrist. i gently placed the tip of the blade into my soft smooth wrist and watched the blood start to pour. I did'nt feel anything. It felt okay. I grabbed some tissues and placed them on my arm and covered the blood and then just sat and looked at my cut.
I then proceeded to look through my box and found many bottle tops in their along with cigerette boxes and matches.
I guess we are all addicted to something that takes the pain away. Each time something upsets me or i can't take something i get a new addiction.
My tears will forever be pouring from my eyes.
The drink will forever be in my stomach.
The cigerettes will forever be in my lungs.
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FanfictionZoe Sugg suffers from anxiety and depression. When she starts to do Youtube she meets many new people but what they don't know is how broken she is. One particular person that wants to help her is Alfie Deyes, but will she let him in? Will she let h...