it's been almost two months since the last words i pull for you and my whole being has been constantly in pain--i am a bunch of hurt that lies upon one another--i cannot think about you like this, i shouldn't, you don't deserve to be in this kind of mind in this messy state and my mom told me yesterday morning that she wish i can stop punishing myself--but it's so tiring to try to be okay
and now i'm listening to old songs to the times when i didn't know you and my heart shrinks i hate you for coming into my life so late if you have come earlier maybe i would have known you when i wasn't so much of a catastrophe maybe i could have loved you without swallowing too much guilt
-- even my apology sounds like a mistake
VOCÊ ESTÁ LENDO
to: love that soothes
Diversosfrom: a pragmatic lover // content: of every bit of you that matters--maybe everything.
