Kept Mate (COMPLETED)

Ch 10 - Star strucked (edited)

Handsome and Just perfect 😊

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ZED'S POV

Pretty face,
messy hair,
hour glass body,
and porcelain skin.

That's my mate.

Her pretty eyes lure me at the deepest pits of my fantasies.
Everytime I took a dive on those pretty sets, I can't seem to pull myself out.

She always get my full attention without trying damn much.

When she passes by,
I'm not sure how to react.

What to say or what to do...
She's just so beautiful and mysterious.

The first time I saw her eyes, the stupid cocoons in my stomach turns into butterflies.

She's just so fine, so breath taking.
The sad and innocent look in her eyes got me hooked.

But I was caught off guard when I sniff something in her on that day.

Impurity...

My wolf growls.

She's been ripped by somebody else.

I know I sounded so judgmental and hyprocrite but my wolf Zac turned nuts.

It kills me when I found out that she's been with another man's arm.
Just thinking of it alone makes me want to slaughter every man alive.

Did she enjoy it?
Maybe yes or maybe not...

I'm not sure if the man is from my pack or from her previous pack.

When I confronted her,
she said it never felt good...

I could see disgust and hatred in her eyes. Her cheeks flared up everytime she speaks.

Or maybe she just said that to make me feel better.

I snorted. As if!

I could tell she done it a lot of times and I hate feeling pissed cause I know I did the same.

Who am I to judge and condemn her when I've been happy on the arma of countless bitches' before?

I yelled mentally.

This is damn confusing.

Even my wolf
Zac is glaring daggers at me. He isn't pleased at us, both me and my mate.

I don't know what's his deal. I'm not even aware of my own.

Seeing her smiling and having a normal conversation with our chef cook pissed the hell out of me.

How dare he gets such luxury when it's supposed to be all mine only?!

So I just reacted by instinct. I said what I said and did the things that I did.

I'm not proud of myself either.

Seeing her hurt because of the things I've done is painful for my side too.
She's my other half, I care for her.

I might not show it yet but I really do.

But I'm not sure if her intentions are pure.

I can't risk falling inlove with someone who doesn't love me back.

She won't let me know what she felt inside.

Her face is always emotionless, showing she doesn't care.

What if she's only after my power and the title I'll inherit?

What about me? What about the bond?

What about all the fantasies I have?

What about our future pups? I won't let them experience this empty life I have with my parents. I want them to grow with the beat of everything.

Now what about my heart? I smiled bitterly.
I think I don't get the right to check for my heart when all I do is to rip my mate's heart.

She might not show it but I know she's hurting.

I know I've fucked up a lot but my insecurities and inner demons are just too much.

I am not clueless of the arrangement my parents did before and I do not plan to end up as lonely as them.

I pulled my hair and growled.

I despise myself for being so violent to her. That's not how a mate suppose to treat his other half.

But her impurity brings out the beast in me.
It made me the monster I never thought I am.

And I hate it that I can't stop myself from inflicting pain on her.

I hate the fact that despite her impurity, I still crave for her.

I long for her...

For everytime I see her, I'm so star strucked.

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A/N - His side of the story 😇💋