Afraid [✔] (Joshler)

fifty four

i had another hard night.

i was almost two weeks clean.

then all of a sudden, the voices.

they were protruding through my brain

through my skull

they wouldnt go away

i couldnt breathe.

i needed you.

but i couldnt wake you.

i screamed.

i cried.

i still couldnt breathe.

then the blood wouldnt stop pouring from my wrists.

i still couldnt breathe.

you woke up.

you tried to help.

you did help.

you calmed me.

you told me that i would be okay.

we'd get through it together.

that i'd get better.

you cleaned up the blood.

must have been hard.

you cried.

told me i was perfect.

that i was beautiful.

that i was amazing.

you carried me to bed.

i asked you to stay with me.

you did.

thank you, josh.