THE FORGOTTEN SMILE

47.

I hate getting flashbacks of thing I don't want to remember

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P.O.V Maddie

~Nightmare~

I walked home from school. I was in mu usual old all-stars and my old jacket.

I opened the door as quietly as I could and I tiptoed inside.

'why the fuck are you here' a harsh familiar voice broke the silence

'shit' I cursed under my breath

'don't curse, I won't tolerate that language in this house' my mom said again and I turned around

'I'm sorry' I whispered

'why are you lying, your not sorry fucking bitch' she grabbed my face and forced me to look up

'oh you sad person' she said sarcastically

'please mom' I whispered again while my eyes watered

'why are you lying' she yelled making me jump

'why did you lie to me you fucking useless bitch' she raiser her hand and I closed my eyes scared of what comes next

'you useless bitch' I felt her hand on my cheek 'no one loves you'

Now her fist reached out for my stomach and I fell on the ground

'you are just a creature that your dad wanted' she kicked my legs

'well guess what your dad is dead and he can't stop me from killing you anymore' she kept kicking me

The pain rushed though my veins. I cried silently making her kick even harder.

'he can't stop me' she pulled my hair up so that I stood up

'you useless bitch, you deserve to die' I opened my eyes to see her with a gun in her hands. I gasped making a small smirk form her lips

'I told you he couldn't stop me' she pointed the gun at me

'STOP' I yelled as loud as I could

~end Nightmare~

'Maddie, wake up' 2 hands held my shoulders and shook me awake

'wake up' I opened my watered eyes to see Dylan above me

'oh my god' he pulled me in a hug

Fuck, he nightmare came back

'ssh' he shushed while petting my hair.

I lied in his arms, not able to move or say anything. I just l lied there crying while he held me.

'hey it's okay, it was just a nightmare' he whispered

'everything is going to be okay'

I started to sob even more.

I hadn't had a nightmare for a month. Before that I usually hand it once a week, I would just wake up screaming and crying and someone would come to me and hug me until I was calm.

The nightmares where usually about John or my mom abusing me and then really killing me. Or it would be that my Mom or John would kill Rose or Dylan in front of me. But no one knew about the last one, I never tell anyone.

Why? Because then Dylan and Rose would worry to much about me.

'did you have a nightmare' Dylan asked after a while