THE FORGOTTEN SMILE

37.

You're gonna get bruised

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P.O.V Maddie
Again I ignored that Dylan called me. I hadn't told him I was skipping school with Rose. I just don't want to think about him.

Don't get me wrong, I don't hate him. I just.. he is still the reason of this all. And i guess I just need to deal with myself before I can deal with him.

'Can you pass me the Choco Ice cream' Rose asked

'Sure' i gave her the ice cream

'How many times did he call all ready' She asked

'What? How do you know it was him' I ask confused

'Oh come on, I every time you look at you phone when it rings you sight deep. Of course it's him' she scoffed

'Oh' I looked at my phone 'he called about 6 times'

'Why aren't you picking up' she asked

'Rose he's still the reason for all of this' i looked at her

'I know, and you just need to accept it first' I

'Yup' i said popping the "P"

'Do you want to go to the park' I asked after a while of us just staring at the movie that was still playing

'Yes' Rose looked at me.

Then we stood up, we grabbed what we needed and went to Rose's car. I didn't say anything, I haven't said much this whole day. Luckily Rose got it and just accepted it so it wasn't awkward.

'Maddie' she asked when she stopped the car

'Yes'

'Are you falling back?' She asked again

'I don't know' I really don't

'Really, because I didn't know you at your worst but you are not yourself today' she turned to me

'Rose, I don't know. I may' I looked at a lady pass by with a dog

'What can I do if you are' she asked again

'I don't know' I said again

'You know you can talk'

'I know' I cut her off

'okay' she smiled, luckily not pissed off that I cut her off.

We stepped out and then started walking.

It was a beautiful day, there where only a few clouds and finally it was warm. Still I managed to feel like shit. What a wonderful life I have.

'do you have any particular place you want to go to' Rose asked hooking her arm with mine

'no, I just want to walk' I smiled a little

'okay' she smiled back

'rose?' I asked

'yes'

'why me' was my only question

'why you what' was her question back

'why me in general. Why did MY dad had to die? Why did MY mom got abusive? Why did I have to get Dylan's attention? Why did I have to be the one moving in with Nina and marc? Why did Denise have to talk about ME? Why did I have to be the one to run a away? Why did you became MY best friend? why Dylan become My boyfriend?'

'because' she mumbled

'see, you have no answer. They just happen' we sit down on a bench

'you're kind of right' Rose mumbled

'I know. There are so many questions that you now answer on. And to be honest, I want to know the answer. So. Bad' I said

'me too. I mean, why did Ginger have to be my real mom, why not Adeline? Why did I have to be the one moving from New York to here? Why did I have to run after you on that day? Why did I have to meet Chris?' she started

'yes. I guess it's just life. Like you can't answer so many questions that form your life' I mumbled

'yes, maybe there is like this big book that have written out our whole life's' Rose said again

'maybe our life is one big book'

'oh my, yes. And everything is written in it' she knotted like so many thought ran through her head

'maybe all the books that exist are life's of people' I was talking with my hands

'maybe the life that the person in the book lives is like a life from the writer' she mumbled

'how do you mean' that literally made no sense in my head

'you know that I believe that when you die, you get born in another life' I knot because she told me this. 'well if you have that, you have life's from before you. And maybe writers remember that life sort of and then start to write about it'

'so all books that we think are fiction, are actually true' she knotted excited

'that is so smart' I mumbled

'we are so wise' Rose chuckled

'yes, we are basically professors' I did a hair flip

'yup' she popped the "p" making us both chuckle.

After the conversation continued for 3 hours we decided that it was time to go home because it was dinner time.

'hey girls' Ginger greeted us when we entered the house

'is mom cooking' Rose asked Ginger

'yes, she's making something Spanish' Ginger tilted her shoulders

'okay' Rose chuckled

'are you eating with us Maddie' she asked

'yes sure' I knotted knowing that I was welcome here whenever.

'super' Ginger smiled and then walking to the kitchen

'my room?' Rose asked and without answering we walked to it.

'so Mads, what are you going to do with the situation at school. We can't skip forever' Rose asked after a while of us just staring at the ceiling

'I don't know. You have any ideas' I asked

'you can just be a normal person and live your life the best you can' she suggested

'or' I asked because her tone made clear there was another option

'you can be a badass chick and I don't know. Do something badass' she tuned on her belly and I did the same.

'I have a feeling we are doing the second option' I knotted

'yes we are' she smirked

'so what is your plan' I asked and she started to talk.

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Hey guys!

So this chapter is kind of random. I was just thinking about this and thought it kind of fit the story.

So what are they going to do?

Hope you stay to see😉

Love ya! <3

XX T