Save Me

You Can't Disappear From Me

It's already twice that I had went through the hardest time until I didn't want to wake up anymore. It's all because of you. When I saw the sword stabs your chest, I thought my world is over but you came back to me. Then when you gone and everyone believed that you committed suicide by jumping from the rooftop, I thought Minatozaki Sana is no longer in this world. She came alive to be someone different, someone empty and fake.

Hey Min Yoongi. I hate you. I hate you because you make my tender love to Jimin turned out to be a disaster. A disaster because I maintained the love with my emptiness. My greatest sin is not when I destroyed him after he knew about our relationship but when I force myself...making sure and deceive myself to think that I only love him. And that I love Jimin Oppa more than anything in this world when you're my world.

If once again I feel you and stare into your eyes, I swear to the God I won't waver anymore to let go of the world I'm living now to comeback to my world, you. What we had been through was too painful, but I think that everything is the Creator's masterpiece. This story is the Almighty's masterpiece. This great love,was formed difficulty after we had been through every bitterness and sorrows.

Do you love me, Yoongi? Like i was before, repeatedly ward away and deceive myself, believed that what I feel was just a plain lust and hatred?

Eventhing is real. Because I really hope the happiness to come into your life.

"Sana...,"

I opened my eyes slowly, feeling warmth that wrapping my body. His soft breath that blows into my face, make me wanna cry in happiness because right now everything is not a dream. Yoongi is still alive and is hugging me.

I look up to stare into his eyes. God, I really miss him. I miss this face, this gaze, everything in him and I can't hold myself anymore to touch him. Feeling Yoongi in every inch of my epidermis.

"Hey don't cry anymore,"

I feel his thumb wipes away my tears that actually I can't hold anymore. Yoongi smiled gently, the smile that I miss and because of that smile I can't hold myself to cry again. I feel Yoongi changed his position beside me to face me comfortably, kissed the tears that flowing down from the corner of my eyes. His tender kiss, I feel it again.

"Why you can't stop crying? Didn't I tell you that tears doesn't suit you?"Yoongi asked, almost whispering. I pulled his t-shirt and buried my face into his chest.

"Because I thought you're already dead,"I let out a sob. I can hear silence pregnant in this room. I think Yoongi wants to hear what was happening when he gone.

"Yoongi...I and Jimin Oppa, also your friends we were looking for you everywhere. Then someone picked your beanie from your mom and said he picked that in Itaewon, the place where someone jumped from 8 floors building's rooftop,"I bit my lower lip. Recalling the past's hardships.

"The guy who jumped from the building had similar features with you. His face couldn't be recognized anymore and it made everyone think that it was really you...,"my voice is more muffling in his chest. My body is trembling upon recalling my hardest time.

"Even though I believed...deep inside my heart I believed that you're still alive. I love you Yoongi...I'm grateful to met you again,"my cry become louder and louder. As if I shout out all of my sorrow when he gone. I really let out of everything because these past years I felt dying and it was so tightening. I'm relieved that he's still here.

"I'm sorry Sana...I'm sorry,"I could hear Yoongi's hoarse voice, I think right now he's crying as well. I almost tell him that I also lost our baby, but I don't know why I'm powerless to tell that. The baby that I never hug...I don't know why I have a feeling if I tell him that it will only add the pain in his heart. I bit my lips hardly.