Save Me

Heart That Can't Cry Anymore

"Oppa, please don't get involved with that bad guys again,"Sana begged.

Hell yeah, Jimin lied. Same with when his fist bruised a couple months ago, Jimin lied again. He said that the scars and cutlet scar in his wrist are because he fought in China due his business matter. He told Sana that there's people who want to destroy their business and Jimin was trapped, fortunately Mr. Kim quickly came and brought polices and everything had set down. Yeah, that's all Jimin's made story. Sana plainly believed that, pissed off by the people who hurt her lover then begged Jimin to overcome the problem more carefully next time.

"It will never be happen again Sweetheart, don't worry,"Jimin pecked Sana's temple then her lips. He smiled when seeing the girl he misses, loves, and the only reason why he's here then he brought Sana to his passionate kiss again. Deeper and longer.

I'll get destroyed.

***

Sana woke up and found a sleeping figure beside her. She roamed around her gaze to the room that she had left for so long. Now she's already here again, back to Jimin. Jimin who is sleeping soundly beside her, still on their clothes. What Jimin did to Sana are only kiss and hug her, never more. How happy, how sheltered and appreciated she is by her own lover. But why it felt so weird?

This is not a black-white theme room with shirtless handsome figure who only covered by white blanket sleeping soundly beside her. The face she stared right not is the face that always filled her days before, so familiar and full of love but why felt so weird? Sana felt weird how she used to went through the nights with Yoongi, stared at his face before and after she slept and now it swifted to Jimin who literally already with her earlier than Yoongi. The guy who supposed to be by herside. But Sana felt her heart is empty.

Yoongi...what is he doing right now? Can he sleep? Is his wound still hurt? That's what inside Sana's mind. Sana quickly shook her head, realized that this is completely wrong. Even though she knew, her heart already fell to the person who destroyed her yet she pitied the most. Looking at Jimin, Sana still feels the same feelings she had before...she likes him, she wants him.

But not as big as what she feels with Yoongi.

Tired. That what's Sana felt. She had no idea how she already changed into a very cruel person to Jimin if she kept thinking about Yoongi like now. Sana left her bed and entered the bathroom. She thought in bathroom she could cool down her head and get back to her senses. Sana decided to drown her head onto cold water.

Yoongi likes Jimin. It's useless for her to miss Yoongi. She won't be loved. Were what crossing Sana's mind.

***

Yoongi hasn't sleep yet even though clock on the wall already pointed it's pin to number 2. He still stood in front of his apartment's huge window, looking at the calm city scenery in early morning. Only dim moonlight which illuminated his dark apartement room. The apartement which he felt more quiet and empty.

Yesterday Sana was still here.

Yoongi knew, wishing that Sana would still be by his side tonight is an impossible thing. The queen is already back to her place, her right position, to her king's side. Yoongi is only a knight who's hiding in the shadows. Hiding everything. His feelings and solitude. Only able to hold the memories when Sana was still there by his side, the times that they went through together remains in his heart. Every bitter and tragic memories that they went through, until the sweetest yet painful things they ever experienced. Never did Yoongi feel happy, truly happy without any sadness and pain. Every time he was with Sana –after he realized his actual feelings- Yoongi has always felt happy and also pain. Even when he was able to laugh at the theme park the last day, Yoongi still felt that Sana is so far away from him, far from his grip, Sana sooner or later will leave and disappear.