Path of Destruction (Editing and Updating)

Day 2: Path to Secretion

"I know."

"You shouldn't be talking to me," pumiyok ako.

He placed his other hand on my right cheek and gently made me face him. He caressed my face softly as we stare at each other.

"Tell me," he begged.

Looking at our situation now, if I tell him what I really feel, I couldn't take any risk. If mom finds out about my feelings for him again, who knows what my mom is capable of.

Umiling ako. He kept pushing me to tell him but I just couldn't. Instead of opening up to him, I hugged him so tight I wanted him to feel my love for him because this is the only way that I could tell him how much I loved him.

Alam kong nagulat siya sa ginawa ko, maski ako ay nagulat din. But that subsided when I felt his warmth, when I felt him hugged me back. Mas lalo kong hinigpitan ang yakap sa kanya.

"I've missed this," sabi ko.

"Me too."

"I've missed you," I buried my face on his neck. "So much."

"I know," marahan niyang hinaplos ang buhok at likod ko, just like before when we were kids. "I've missed you too," malambing niyang sinabi.

Napahagulhol ako, hindi ko alam kung dahil ba sa sinabi niya o dahil sa di ko mapigilang maawa para sa aming dalawa. We both deserve better. We fucking both do.

We were like that for a good 2 minutes. We didn't care if mom walked in on us for freaking 2 minutes, even if she did see us, I don't care anymore. I'll fight for what I feel, 'till the last of my breath.

*.*.*

"Ma'am, welcome to Magnolia South High," the captain informed me.

I look to my left and there, I saw lolo's big and prestigious school. The view isn't really that good since there were students roaming around the campus. It'd be better if they were out of my sight, the view from up here would make me consider that it's beautiful.

I felt someone squeezed my hand gently. Oo nga pala. Binalingan ko si Yvo at marahang ngumiti sa kanya. He just stared at me and I continued smiling. Nang hindi ko na nakayanan ang mga titig niya ay sinandal ko na lamang ang ulo ko sa balikat niya. I glared at the two pilots watching us. They immediately focused their attention to landing the chopper safely down on the ground.

"One word from the two of you and I will make sure you don't get any jobs," banta ko sa kanila.

Hindi na sila nag-abalang magsalita pa at itinuon ng 100 percent na atensyon sa unahan.

Lumabas kami ni Yvo at naglakad patungong main building. Yvo gently let go of my hand to open the umbrella that he brought. Mainit kasi ngayon kaya siguro naisipan niyang magdala. Napangiti tuloy ako.

"Ang sweet," komento ko.

He smiled back. "Anything for you, my love."

Natigilan ako. My love? Does that mean he loves me back?

Gusto ko sana siyang tanungin but I do not want to ruin the moment. Ayaw kong mag-assume, ayaw ko rin mapahiya kapag tinanong ko siya tungkol sa aming dalawa dahil alam kong walang kasiguraduhan ang meron man sa amin.

What if, he just wanted our friendship back?

Pero bakit naman niya hahawakan ang kamay ko?

What if he really feels something for me?

Kung wala man, bakit ang sweet-sweet niya sa akin?

"Aray!", sigaw ko.

"What the fuck!?", sigaw din ng taong nakabangga ko na ngayon ay naliligo sa iniinom na kape mula sa Starbucks.