Bully//Jonah marais

Suicide note

i started to write the note as my tears fell down my face it started to get the paper wet good thing i was almost done.When i finished i went to sleep and waited from the next day to come because i knew i wanted to see everyone before i killed myself
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the next day hit and i got ready for school i wore some shorts and a short sleeve shirt.u could clearly see my cuts that marked both my arms but the cuts affect my right arm more than the left arm.as i walked to school i realized i was late and when i got inside the school the halls were empty so i took out my paint found jonah locker and wrote YOU WIN GAME OVER on his locker in big black letters.i quickly put the paint in my pockets and went to class.Once i got in class i opened the door and the teacher looked at me
Mrs.Helpman-your late ms.Paul
Alex-I don't give a fuck
Mrs.Helpman-what did i say young lady?
Alex-i said i don't give a fuck did u get it that time
Mrs.Helpman-young lady i will not tolerate disrespect in my classroom
Alex-it deosnt matter i'm gonna be leaving soon
Mrs.Helpman -Where will u be going
Alex-Wait for it the office is gonna call me down
Mrs.Helpman-Just sit down
i walk to my chair and whipped it back.i grabbed a different chair and took out my paint and wrote on the desk YOU WIN GAME OVER when the teacher came over she stared at me u til the phone rang
Mrs.Helpman-Jonah and Alex to the office
i heard the whole class oo while we left
Mrs.Helpman-oh and ms.Paul you have a detention for painting on my desk
Alex-fuck off old hag
that was the last thing i said before heading down the the office.As me and jonah walked together he notice his locker on the way there
Jonah-My locker wtf did u do to my locker?
Alex-Game Over you win
jonah-the game isn't over until i say
alex-the game ends today because it's the last time u will be able to hurt me
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we got to the office and we both went into the principal room and sat next to eachother
Mrs.P-Okay first i'm gonna start with u Jonah there have been many reports of you bullying students and u know we don't tolerate that here a ridge wood high
Jonah-whoever told u that is lying
i mumble under my breath "no it's not"
Mrs.p-what was that Alex
Alex-nothing
Jonah-yeah well whoever told u that is a lying cunt
Mrs.p-Language jonah!!
Jonah-Sorry
Mrs.p-now u Alex give me the paint
Alex-okay
i pulled out the paint from my pockets and dropped it on her desk
Mrs.p-So what do u have to say to jonah for painting on his locker
Alex-You win game over
Mrs.p-What is this Game?
Jonah-it's nothing
Alex-i will tell u this game gladly
Jonah-no u won't
Mrs.P-Jonah Marais Roth Frantzich !
Jonah-Sorry
Alex-It's where he and his friends bully me to the point where i don't want to live and he even has a page on facebook about it with Hannah Fry
Mrs.p-Jonah is this true
Jonah-well...yeah
mrs.P-jonah i very disappointed in you and same goes to you too Alex.Jonah i want u to delete the page and give me your phone
Jonah-okay
Jonah deleted the page an handed his phone to the principal
alex-oh wait a second mrs.P
i put my hand in jonah pocket and handed her his other phone
Jonah-Dude wtf
Alex-Doesn't feel good does it
Jonah just looked at me with a death stare until we got out of the office and into the halls
Jonah-Wtf was that for
Alex-for hurting me
Jonah grabbed me and dragged both of us into a supply cloth set so it was just me and him.He pushes he up to the wall
Jonah-I swear to god paul if u get me in trouble i will kill u
Alex-To late for both things
Jonah looked at me with confusion until he looked at my arms and saw cuts all over them
Jonah-Why Alex
Alex-u don't act like u fucking care jonah u cause it the pain u cause all these cuts every word u said and wrote there's a cut for it all the times u hit me there's a cut for it every single cut is u all u
Jonah-Ur the one who broke my heart first
Alex-What the time i didn't let you kiss my neck or the time i kiss danny and not u because i don't fucking like u are wha u did to me
Jonah-Alex please
Alex-no jonah u ruin my life everything u do hurts me
right then i felt jonah soft lips crash a pond mine one of his hands was on my face with the other was in my hair.it felt like the kiss lasted hours but at the same time it felt right it felt like life was suppose to be like this.When i pulled away it felt like i couldn't breath anymore
Alex-Jonah
Jonah-Damn ur a good kisser
Alex-Jonah get away from me
i pushed jonah away from me and left he cloth set and headed home
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⚠️Warning triggering content⚠️
When i got home i grabbed my razors and cut as deep as i could in both of my arms.The blood rushes fast and it wasn't the same colour blood i would always see this time the blood was a dark red after 20 seconds i fainted and fell on the floor the blood made a pool around me as i drifted away.
⚠️Triggering part over⚠️
All i could think about was that kiss that happened between me and jonah.all of a sudden i heard someone come in and yell.it was Jonah,He grab towels and arms them around my arms and call the ambulance.
[Jonah POV]
i went to alex house to see if she was okay since she rushed out of the cloth set.Once i got to her house her gate wasn't shut all the way and neither was her door so i ran in to see her body covered in blood on the floor.i grabbed some towels and wrapped it around her then call the ambulance.They rushes over really quickly when the cops came i saw the note sitting there on her desk and grabbed it.i went home (because the cops told me too) and read the note.

the note:
Dear reader i know your reading this asking why,why did this happen and why didn't i notice.well just know that i couldn't handle life anymore.Ever since July 30th my life been a living shit hole because of Jonah Marais and his whole gang except for Daniel Seavey the man that i knew i could always trust he was always there for me when i needed him.The day me and him kissed was the best day of my life because i knew this was the only happiness i would ever be able to feel.maybe u are wondering what happened to me to the point where i could take it anymore well in school my best friend Jonah marais was The BULLY he the reason why this all happened because he torture me by hitting,pushing,slapping,and smashing my head in brick walls causing me to cut causing me to go into a server depression but i never let any notice.when he had his gang hit me i let it happened because there was nothing i knew i could do.While the beat on me the only thing i would think about was the day me and Jonah hanged out having the most fun we ever had before it all started.I thought coming back would be a good idea instead it lead to my death.tell daniel,sage,mia,Jadyn i love them with my whole heart and let jonah know he got what he wanted

goodbye world❤️