The Only One (Phan) [COMPLETE]

Chapter 6 - Ruby

        I stare at Phil, chewing nervously at my bottom lip. 

        "Well?" Phil says. "Spit it out. What's there to talk about?"

        I quietly clear my throat. "Erm...well...I wanna start off with an apology. I was a great big dick to you last night and I'm really sorry about that."

        Phil sighs. "Okay. Well...I accept your apology. You know, you were pretty rude."

        "I know, I know. I'm just...going through a lot right now, Phil. And no, I'm not making excuses for what I did. There's no excuse for that. I'm just letting you know that mentally, I am just struggling."

        "Alright...look, Dan, I know you go through a lot of crap mentally. I get that. But...I think something else is making you even more upset," says Phil.

        "Yeah, and what's that?" I ask.

        "You're jealous."

        I laugh. "Uh...yeah. I already told you that I'm jealous that you have a girlfriend. That's why I'm-"

        "No, no. I mean, you're jealous that I'm giving someone else so much attention," Phil says, interrupting me.

        My jaw drops and my eyebrows raise. "What makes you say that?"

        Phil shakes his head, smiling. "It is quite obvious, Dan. You don't talk to really anyone except me, and all of a sudden I have myself a girlfriend and you're being extra moody and upset. You don't like the fact that I'm giving so much of my attention to somebody else. It's like you want me all for yourself."

        Well...he's not wrong.

        I sigh dramatically. "Look, Phil, I don't think you quite understand."

        "Oh, yes I do. I most certainly do understand that you're jealous and if Meghan suddenly broke it off right now with me, you would be ecstatic about it. That's what I think."

        Oh, he knows me so well.

        "Shut up, Phil. You're acting like I'm in love with you or something."

        Suddenly, the room is silent and we're just staring at each other with frustrated eyes.

        "I-I didn't say that," Phil stutters.

        I don't say anything.

        "I'm going to my room for a while," Phil says sadly, rushing away from me.

        I'm about to stop him, but I'm suddenly angry at him. I'm trying to make things right and own up to what I did, and all he's doing is making me feel ashamed. Then leaving the room? I don't get it. It's so unlike him.

        "Fine! Go hide away from your problems, Phil! I'm trying to make things better, and you're literally running away!" I shout.

        There's no response.

        I kick the bin so hard that it hurts my big toe. I wince and rub my foot, trying to ease the pain.

        

        I've been sitting on my bed staring down at a text that I've written, for half an hour. I can't send it. I'm so scared to contact Ruby. I don't know a thing about her. I'm not even interested in her. The only reason I'm doing this is to try and distract myself from Phil, and also to make it look like I'm into girls. Well, I do like girls, but I'm so in love with Phil that I don't think I could ever fall for another person, no matter their gender.