~Carter's P.O.V~
I honestly can't believe what I did.
Why did I even fucking think about doing that!?
Right now, I hate myself and will never forgive myself, I lost the fucking love of my life.
I cheated on my girlfriend with my fucking best friend's sister.
The amount of times I've had to take the pain away by...
Yeah.
I betrayed Matt and Kylie, I can't even face Matt to be honest. I'm scared of what he will do, not to sound like a pussy, but when he's mad he'll say and do anything.
He's reckless.
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I've been crying for, what feels like, years.
I've not left the house since, I'm too ashamed.
I hate what I did, I hope Kylie will forgive me.
But she won't.
I did the worst thing possible, how could she forgive me.
I hope she comes round soon.
I can apologise.
She can break my heart fully, have a go at me, cry, get angry, and leave me forever.
It would be a privilege to have my heart broken by her.
I was knocked out of my thoughts by someone shouting.
I only heard the last bit as they shouted it,
"You just don't get it!"
Is it?
No it can't be...
It is.
It's Kylie.
I jumped off my bed and crept to the door, pressing my ear against it.
All I heard was heavy breathing, no words.
I decided to open the door, revealing the love of my life.
Kylie.
I honestly could not ask for anything more than her.
She looked at me and I saw tears form in her perfect eyes.
I wanted to kiss her so badly.
I couldn't resist it.
I walked up to her and leant in to press my lips against hers.
But then she broke my heart.
She pushed me away before our lips connected and covered her mouth with one hand and turned away and ran, crying harder than I had ever seen her before.
She sprinted off and around a corner.
I heard the door open and close, a loud bang, and then just Kylie crying.
I couldn't cope with it, I loved her so much and she wouldn't even listen to me.
I looked at Arya with plead in my eyes, as if asking her for help, to tell me what the room number was.
But she just stood there.
She just stood there, arms crossed, lightly tapping one foot on the ground, shaking her head at me.
She said to me,
"Are you not even going to say anything?" With tears in her eyes, before turning around and walking off to Kylie.
My heart burns whenever I think of her.
Kylie.
Kylie.
Kylie...
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(A/N)
Okay so short and rubbish chapter I know I know don't kill me 🙌
I know I haven't updated in ages, it's not because I couldn't be bothered, it's because my charger was kind of going dodgey at only fifty percent and it was kind of on Monday and there was kind of a whole in the cable with smoke coming out...
Yeah.
So I've only just got my charger today.
I've been limited to checking the time and quickly liking Matt's tweets.
It's been painful.
And now guess what.
I'm going on holiday.
In the south of France.
In a frigging tree.
Yup.
In a tree in the south of France for a week.
That's Saturday from ten until a week on Saturday in the evening.
So that means no updates for over a week.
😭😭😭😭😭
I'm going to write on the plane and hopefully when I get home, and then I will be able to update a chapter every night instead of every few days.
Long an ikik
Bye, ily 💖
