There are days where my mind doesnt move fast enough to get to the next hour.
Then there are time when it beats behind my chest faster...
And faster...
And faster...
And there is nothing that can stop it,
But you.
Somedays it is silent.
No light, nor sound.
This feeling covers my days,
Tilts my crown,
My lids hang low, and release is found.
But it isnt enough- same as I.
Setbacks push time thousands of moments,
For you, just a second.
What arent you telling me?
Stop ignoring me!
you know i weep quietly,
inside of me- my biggest fear...
and i wear it on my sleeve for the world to see.
Im sorry for being so weak.
I am strong for so many,
So few for me.
I hold it in, hold it in, hold it in, hold-
Until I cannot speak.
Bc my mouth opened wide,
Is for you to release all pent up tension inside....and swallow...then sigh.
Only I smile,
But inside im screaming.
Happy to have given you just a glimpse of peace,
Where my torture ripped through me,
Like your craving- let go the beast unto me.
It'd be a blessing to receive.
That much want...desire...my body already lifted higher than I can pull to my lungs.
If theyre black, then we're a perfect match and our babies will be beautiful.
If they mattered...
I mean of course they do but we cant even,
Think as one...let go together
Flow together and smoke one again.
All I want again...
Sittin in a too familiar place again,
Hearing sounds, smelling smells, tasting toxicity and I have no safe way out.
You are my safe place...
At least I try to make you out to be.
Bring back my peace, please baby?
I am everything-
- and it's too much for me...
I apologize for everything,
And I do not know the step coming next.
I wait, patiently...
Quietly...
Presently...
For thee, my doting nightwalker😶 upon his rolling steed.
Please hear me...
Stop making my latest mare
A reality.
I only care to see you happy.
YOU ARE READING
Patience
PoetryYou gave a muse to me, so strong I lost me loving you... Coming back...slowly...writing what I think and am too afraid to believe or possibly see but am ignoring...no longer. 4/5/18-4/9/19 Thank you Papi, beloved. R.I.H. May 4 (😶)
