15 // Conscience

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A/N: First things first, I'm back! WOOHOO!

Thank you so much for sticking with me, I love you all so so much.

Enjoy chapter 15!! (:

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Tick, Tock. Tick, Tock.
Even in a place between worlds the clock keeps ticking. Reminding me that seconds, minutes, hours are passing by. I can't see the clock, I don't know the time. But I can hear it ticking.
Tick, Tock. Tick, Tock.
It's been going on for ages. It haunts me in every way possible.
Tick, Tock. Tick, Tock.
It never stops, not even when I sleep. If I even sleep. I don't remember.
Tick, tock. Tick, Tock.
Please make it stop.
Tick, Tock. Tick, Tock.
Make it stop.
Tick, Tock. Tick, Tock.
Please..

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Zayn

I miss her, a lot. It's been two years, and I haven't dated anyone since her. I don't want too, I can't. I'm not sure how I'm able to live with Harry, to be close to Harry. Sometimes even see him as a friend, when I know he will take innocent girls away from their boyfriends just like she got taken away from me by the same reason. I don't know how I'm capable of living with the fact that Haven, my best friend, will be taken away from me also. Not that I have a choice. But at least this time I can say goodbye, which I never had the chance to do with Alice.

Alice.

Even her name hurts to think about. And I miss Liam. I never thought about missing him, his friendship. I didn't think I could ever think of him as a friend again, as a human being. Because he isn't, he never was. And now he's supposed to be? I don't buy it. He killed three people, without remorse.

I remember when I first met him, when he was still an angel. Coming down with Harry because he was too scared to go the earth alone. Harry told me about him, how he was back then. And how he thought that when Liam was turned into a demon, he would be one of those demons who can't kill without a contions. But he wasn't, it took him only a year to end three lives. Now he doesn't even remember. He doesn't remember being an angel, he doesn't remember being a demon. He doesn't remember killing three girls, he doesn't remember he killed my girl.

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Him

I snapped out of it. Suddenly. I was in my car, alone. Liam was smashing his fist against my window angrily. Why? ''Fucking scumbag, get out of the car!'' What had I done now? I looked the other way and saw I was in front of his house. ''What the hell is wrong with you, stalking an innocent girl? You're fucking disgusting!'' Stalking? Is he talking about Haven? Only then I realized he didn't even know who I was. Luckily. If he knew who I was, things would probably only get worse. I had been stalking her. Not that I remember, but I had. I couldn't stay, I couldn't face him. Or her. So I drove off, leaving him standing there shouting after me. I couldn't hear what he said, but I knew it wasn't good.

When I got home I found Zayn on the couch, a beer bottle in his hand. Five more standing empty on the table in front of him. He didn't react to me coming in, he just blankly stared ahead. ''Zayn?'' I didn't get an answer.

He has done this before, several times actually. The first year that I lived with him he got drunk everyday. I thought he just liked it at first, but than one day he started talking while he was drunk. He ended up crying, telling me his story. If I was able to cry, I probably would have too. I knew how he felt. He told me about Alice, about how much he loved her. About Liam. I didn't know it was Zayn's girlfriend that Liam took. It took me months to get him to stop drinking. I don't know why I did, I wish I could just get drunk and forget it all. But I can't, and in a way it's better that way. He hasn't gotten drunk for that reason in 8 months now. But when I found him like that, I knew it was because of Alice.

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