Unexpected Love

Ch. 20 - What To Believe

Shena

I'm at home right now going crazy about everything that's happened today. I'm just confused. How can a bad boy suddenly change his ways? Is that even possible?

I'm really lost. What do I do? Ugh. He said that I made him change. I made him wanna be a better person. You know, I've been hearing all over school for a while now that the bad boy crew in our school has gone soft.

At first I was like, nah, that's just rumors, but ever since Carru apologized to me, I realized that he's been nice to my friends and I, even to Zoya who hates him.

I even witnessed for myself that he's been nice to other students too. I saw him gave lunch money to this junior student who lost his. The boy literally hugged him and thank him and he just laughed and told him to get something to eat. I was like, wow, hats off yo. I couldn't believe it.

He said he's in love with me. Carru Mitchell is in love with me! I'm just speechless right now. He said he didn't know what love is so he talked to his aunt about how he's been feeling and she helped him realized that he's in love. Wow, just wow.

He asked me to be his girlfriend and I don't know what to say. I really don't wanna go into a relationship with him them later on I find out that he's just playing me. I can't handle getting hurt again. I went through three relationships before and I ended up getting hurt all three times. I will not make that mistake again.

I don't want to believe Carru and then it turn out to be a big mistake. I'm scared of getting heartbroken again. I'm terrified about it.

On one hand there's the possibility that Carru is just tryna play me and on the other hand there's the possibility that he's telling the truth. I don't know what to believe.

"Shena? Are you okay sweetie?" I heard someone asked interrupting my thoughts I look up and saw Mom looking at me worriedly.

"I'm okay Mom", I said softly.

"You look like you have a lot on your mind. You've been absentminded ever since you came home from school and You barely touched your food. Are you sure you're okay baby?" She asked sincerely.

I would love to talk to Mom about this but I can't. She knows about my previous relationships and because this situation with Carru is so complicated, I can't tell her.

"I'm sure Mom. I'm fine. I'm just thinking about my exams that's all", I said trying to sound convincing.

"Okay. Well, don't worry sweetie. You'll do just fine. Get some sleep", she said smiling at me so I smiled back then she left.

I went to bed praying and asking God to guide me to the right decision.

The next few days at school went by intensely. Carru and his friends talk with my friends and I everyday and he never ask me about what's my answer. I guess he's just waiting for me to answer when I'm ready.

He always smiling at me and writing me love notes with my favourite flowers, white roses attached to the paper. And I'm not talking about the fake rose that's handmade, I'm talking about the real thing! I wonder how he knows that white roses are my favourite.

He never give me the notes and the roses himself he sends them with someone else. But the initials at the bottom of each note is 'C.M' so I figured it's him.

I'm now in my last class for the day when someone walked passed my desk and drop another note with a rose attached to it on my desk. This makes twelve notes. I took it up and open the note.

'For the first time in my life I have fallen in love. That too with a smart, beautiful and an attractive girl like you. I know it's hard to believe, but I love you more than there are stars in the sky. C.M'

Tears literally rolled down my cheeks as I read the note. Oh my God. I quickly dried my tears then I felt someone touch my hand so I turn and saw San smiling at me.

As class ended I went to the bathroom and splash water on my face. I dried my face and turned when I saw my girls looking at me.

"You can't possibly believe that bullshit Shena?!" Zoya shrieked.

"Stop it Zoya! Don't say that! How can you be so inhumane to someone's feelings?" Cam said harshly to Zo.

"That asshole doesn't have feelings!" Zoya yelled.

"That 'asshole' has been nothing but nice to you and you're treating him like a piece of shit! Why Zo? What has he done to you?" San shouted angrily.

"I know what kind of person he really is. Y'all know it too but y'all just too caught up in his lies to see it! I won't let Shena get involved with him! He's no good for her!" Zoya shouted.

"That's not your decision to make! Who do you think you are, Shena's Mom?!" San shrieked.

"Enough! I've had enough of y'all bickering over Carru every day! I'm sick of it! I swear if I hear another word about him coming out of y'all mouths I'll end our friendship right now! Do you understand? We can't let boys come between us y'all know that! We agreed on that! So stop it! Just shut up about it!" I screamed and they all went silent.

"Now, I just want to go home so let's go", I said walking off and they followed.