The Real Jiyong

Chapter 14: The Interview Pt 2

CHINA: "Being a highly sort after celebrity, do you sometimes regret your choice of becoming an idol?"

GD: "Growing up I looked and admired the people I saw on TV and I wanted to have what they had and live the way they did. And at the time I didn't know how exactly I was going to get there but I knew one thing and that was people were going to be watching me on TV one day. Many times people assume that the life of an idol is easy, but even for those whose fame came instantly the truth is the same for all of us. To keep growing and mastering your talent it takes time and effort. Dedication, perfecting your skill to the point where no one can do it the way you do. For me it's about putting in those extra hours whether in the studio or just brainstorming ideas alone in my room till early hours. I make sure that the end result reflects the hours that I put into it."

CHINA: "Being an idol you are a inspiration and role to many young children. Do you worry that young kids may do things like drink and go parting because it's something that you."

GD: "I do try my best to conduct myself in a manner that is respectful and I do advise that young people shouldn't drink and do things that will bring harm to them and their bodies still they are still growing and maturing. But at the end of the day it's a person's choice and what they decide to do, can't be blamed or pinned on me. Each person is able to choose for themselves, so I will try to guide young people and encourage them to live healthy lifestyles and I also make sure that I look after my own health."

CHINA: "You said that the actions of others that see you and the way you live cannot be pinned on you and rightly so. But what do you have to say to the people who speak badly of you saying that you are a bad influence."

GD: "All I can do really is just give the best of myself to the people who will accept me. The one thing I have learned is that I can not change the opinions of people and what they think of me is what they think of me. Sure, it's still hurts because I wonder what I have done for people to hate me and think so badly of me but at the same time I can't change their opinion of me. I do wonder what about me people hate so much but if I dwell too long on that question...I would not have gotten to where I am today. So, what I have to say to such people is probably nothing, because I know that I make mistakes but what matters is that day by day I strive to do better than I did the day before."

CHINA: "Your line of work comes with a lot of pressure and responsibilities so what does G-Dragon do to relax and unwind."

GD: "Well, if I don't have comebacks or concerts to prepare for I usually like to spend time at home with Momo my cat or if members or friends are not busy just go out for lunch or dinner and catch up with one another. I don't really want to do a lot when I have time off so I'm just at home most times. I do go on vacation to certain places but I'm more interested in finding time to just relax with people closest to me."

CHINA: "Relaxation is key to a clear mind, but how do you motivate yourself when you find yourself in that dark place and you just don't feel up to it anymore? Have you experienced moments like that? "

GD: "It would be a lie if I say I hadn't and in particular 2013 was year where I just had a lot of things going on personally and emotionally I could feel I was a wreck, I think to everyone around specifically people who knew me, they could tell that something was extremely off. But for me I have this bad habit of throwing myself fully into work and just trying to distract myself physically by keeping busy. But, the feeling comes back when I go home and I'm alone and I feel myself sinking and just drowning almost in my emotions. In such times its hard to motivate myself so I usually look for something to encourage me or lift me up and sometimes is a line from a movie or a line from a song that most times reflects exactly how I am feeling in that moment. It's a odd refreshing feeling because it makes me realize that I'm not alone in the way I am feeling and that actually it's not a bad thing. How I get out of it is a process but eventually I find peace with it and I am able to move on. But yes I have experienced those type of moments and hearing this may make fans worry and feel sad but I get through it also seeing comments from fans telling me to hang in there, that their there for me really warms my heart and in such times makes me feel a bit better as I read over them."