Flutter by.

22

I woke up to a warm body next to me.i wasn't surprised. I had managed to sleep peacefully only when they were near me. I knew if they weren't next to me id wake up in a panic attack. I looked up to see who it was and smiled. I saw ians sleeping face, i smiled . I snuggled my head into his chest and closed my eyes again. A couple of more minutes and I'd be fine.

I couldn't go back to sleep.my mind was going into dangerous waters. It kept me blushing for sure.

Was it normal for people to 'cuddle' like this?liam said we were cuddling last time i was laying on him in the living room . We had taken a nap. i was cuddling right now no? Was it normal for friends to cuddle? was it a right thing to do?normal?

My face blushed. I liked them..... but im not too sure if i like them romanticly? Maybe i do. They were wonderful guys. I sighed. Guys. That's the thing, i didnt like one , i liked them all. I blushed harder. I admitted to myself. I liked them. No.....It's too early for that. They were just helping me. They were family . But.......

They thought of me like a sister no? I sighed, they probably did. How did i regard them as? Brothers...... lovers? No ! They should be brothers! They wouldn't like for me to be thinking like this- what if they didnt even like me?

God my head kept repeating itself. My brows furrowed as more ideas came to mind. I blushed and went over the diffrent scenarios.

I had no real experience with real guy friends so i couldn't compare it to anything. I blushed i was getting too ahead of myself here. I needed to calm down.

"Pumkin? What's going in that beautiful brain of yours?" Ian said and i blushed. Should i tell him?how would i tell him?
What was i even going to tell him!

"Thinking " i said and looked up to his hazel orbs. He stared at me then lowered his head down to kiss my forehead. A kiss!

" of what pumkin? Im always going to be here to breakdown anything thats bothering you , just shoot your questions to me" he said and i blushed. He kissed my forehead again , then his put forehead on mine. I blushed at how close we were.

"D-do yall like me?" I asked and he froze. He blushed , opened his mouth then closed it. He gave me a crooked smile of his and kissed my forehead again. A-another kiss!!

" no" he said and i felt my stomach drop......... I stared at him and my heart patered irregularly .....he held my face with his hands and kissed my nose.i was torn.....

" we love you" he said and i looked at him. my heart skipped a beat. Tears began streaming out of my eyes.i heard him panic and i giggled. I played myself.

" thank you" i said and rubbed my eyes. I never knew how good it felt when some one told you they loved you. They loved me........they loved me! Wait...wasnt it to early to say love? What type of love? I sighed. Atleast they didnt hate me.

I hugged him and cried happy tears. I was wanted! Loved! I sucked in. Let's not get too ahead of myself......But i was extremely happy i found people who'd want me. Cared for me!

I giggled ,i was like a little puppy that found a home. Ian chuckled and hugged me back.

"Lets sleep in a bit more" he said and i nodded. I could do that. I layed my head on his chest and heard his heart beat. He layed his chin on my head.MY mind went back to thinking stuff , this time things that didn't really bother me. I closed my eyes and listened to ians calm heartbeat.

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"Shut the hell up , you'll wake up my little pumkin asshole-" ian said and i cursed my ears for picking that up. Go back to sleep. Go back to sleep.

"Shut up brother, she's ours not just yours. don't be greedy. " i heard liam chuckle .i blushed.

"C-chess? about that plan.... we went through with it..... without your permission...." ian said and held me tight. I heard a chair being shoved hardly then a heavy sigh .

"Guys......* breathe In* i thank you i do..... but the twins are better cared for with their mother.....how is a man going to care for a child with a job that keeps you in demand.....i just wanted visitation rights. " he said and i could hear the sadness in his voice. The guys groaned in response.

" Chess. Sangs here, we have her here at home most the time .... shit I can stay at home and quit the academy  , we are a family and if it means adding one or two little ones to complete it fully then you bet your ass were going to get atleast one of the twins back !how hard is caring for a kid!" Ian said and i nodded my head .i froze. My facade has been found! Ian chuckled and hugged me.

"See Sangs agreeing in her sleep. it's a definite yes to this plan . We asked a court member , one from the academy , to help us , and he said he could help us out!" Liam said and i blushed. They still thought i was asleep. Phew.

I heard chess's heavy sigh and heard him excuse himself out.