Fragile Strength (Kakashi x oc)

Chapter 14: Far away

At that time, Kasuno just completely stopped crying. Grave. Yes, grave. It's too painful that no words or sobs came out of her mouth. It's too painful that her tears just halted. She's so hurt to the point that her heart felt numb.

She wanted to live with Kakashi but....the end would be him crying over her grave....

So she made up her mind. That night, she packed up her stuff and left.

2 days later

Kasuno stand in front of Rin's tomb. She run her hand through the cold stone before placing a white tulip on top.

"I guess our destiny is the same...nee-chan." She smiled sadly, looking down "I remeber all those time you would come back from a mission and tell me about Kakashi. You used to always brag about him. Through all your stories, I grew fond of him." She chuckle bitterly "I wonder...If you were still here, we'll probably fight and bicker against each other....we both love Kakashi, don't we?"

She sat on the ground, head down as she reminisce all the time she spent with Rin "It's just so sad....both of us have to leave Kakashi."

Suddenly, the wind blows hard, giving her goose bumps. She chuckle and look up, seeing the brunette in front of her.

"You know Rin...I heard Kakashi returned to the village already." Kasuno told her, looking up "I should be happy but I'm scared. I feel helpless and it hurts...it hurts so much." She place a hand on her chest, tears threatening to fall.

Rin sat down across from her and gave her a reassuring smile, as if telling her it's ok.

"You believe I would do the right thing, huh?"

Rin nodded.

"Nothing I do seems to be right....this is all because I became greedy. I acted without thinking about Kakashi. I was a fool, Rin. I'm really sorry...I won't be able to protect the guy we love." She close her eyes and let the tears flow "Rin...please give Kakashi strength for what I'm doing."

"What are you crying for? I told you not to cry without me..."

Kasuno's heart took a leap. It's that familiar voice she always longed for. By now, the image of Rin her imagination had made is gone. Slowly, she look back and was met by Kakashi's eye.

"I've been looking for you, Kasuno. What are you doing here?" He questioned, stopping right in front of her. He look extremely exhausted. He have dark circles under his eyes and his hair looks messier than usual.

Kasuno wipe her tears and forced out a smile "Oh, you're back." She acted surprise.

Kakashi's eyebrows met "Been back for 3 days. I went to your apartment but you weren't there. Hanare wouldn't tell me anything...and I couldn't find you anywhere. Do you know how worried I was?" he tried to sound calm but his voice seems like it's about to break.

"Oh." She looked away, trying to interact with him as little as possible.

"Are you sure you're ok? Did I miss something? You can tell me anything, Kasuno..." With every step he took towards her, she prayed that he'll just stop. It's breaking her inside specially when he offered his hand to help her stand up.

It was hard but she ignored him and stood up by herself.

Kasuno shook her head and forced yet another smile "I'm busy. Inoichi-sama is probably looking for me." She walked past him but he grabbed her wrist.

"Why are you avoiding me?" He interegate her "Did I...do something wrong?"

She took steps back "I don't have the time to deal with you right now. Just leave me alone." She look back at him with a glare before walking away.

Kakashi was left there standing, speechless. He tried thinking of what he could have done wrong but nothing comes to mind. Before she could go very far, he ran after her and hugged her. He missed her so much. He knows....he can feel her. Every night that he will visit her house and the maid will turn him down...he knows she was there. He knows she will look through the window and watch him walk away.

"Kasuno, I don't like this. I don't want you to keep avoiding me. Atleast tell me the reason why. I'll fix it." He said almost desperately as he snuggles in her neck.

She slowly faced him, eyes looking down "I'm just not interested in you anymore. You're always gone and I realized...You're not really the type of person I'm looking for. My feelings for you right now is just...gone...lost. You're an important person for Konoha and I know that...but I don't even know if you'll return alive after your missions. I can't live in anxiety like that." She glance at him coldly before walking away "Leave me for awhile...maybe I'll change my mind about you."

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Even if time passes, I'll always be here. I'll be your home which you can always rest in, anytime...I realized, it's not me turning my back that hurts, it's our memories that follows.
- Kasuno

Don't forget this one thing. Some nights far away, there's stars that will comfort you. It might be me. It might not be me. But no matter what happens between us, I love you. And if you need me, I mean really need me, I'll come to you faster than a heartbeat.
-Kakashi