MPAM (Under Major Editing)

Chapter 31

This whole time I was searching for sanctuary, happiness and all I need to find that is within Jay, he's what makes me happy. If it means ending my life to the safety of Riley, Chase, my parents, Aiden, my pack and Jay especially Jay I'd die a happy person

"So all I need is to master all my abilities?" I asked with a new found confidence

"Yes, but I'll never let him take you, I promise nothing will ever harm you" he smiled cupping my face

My eyes fluttered close and I breathed out a cool breath, when our foreheads connected a rush of warmth spread through me and I relaxed at his touch

"Where do I learn to control and enhance my powers?"

"I can show you some things but alot of it will come naturally, hopefully and if not we have plenty of time to learn" he said inching away slowly

"Can I ask you one thing?"

He nodded

"Why are you killing him? Doesn't everyone want him dead?" I questioned

I never really clicked but there a only of handful of people who know about Death, and even then none of them had stepped forward to say they want him dead. If he was going to enslave the world's population shouldn't they want him dead

"It's complicated" he sighed sitting up from his chair

"How much more complicated are things get?" I said fustrated "Everytime I seem to get reassurance something else is involved"

"I really can't tell you baby, believe me I would but I can't" he said standing next to me, his chest brushing my right arm "I'd do anything to tell you but I can't" his voice broke at the end

I looked at him with a blurred vision, just barely seeing him through my eyelashes

"What happened to no more secrets" my voice broke off

He sighed and reached out to touch me but I flinched away, running a hand through his hair he let out a fustrated yell and stomped around the room

"Bloody hell Abby! Just trust me on this, I can't tell you because I'm bound into secrecy!" he yelled getting angry

Bound?

Like what he told me when I was chained like an animal, when I though he was leaving me. All I wanted was to comfort him but I can't handle the secrets, the lies. I've live my whole life with emotional and physical pain and I don't want that anymore. This one secret is what ties everything else together and he knows it

"Tell me" I pleaded walking over to him

"Tell me please, so I can understand" I begged

He stopped and looked at me doubtfully before a look of hope clouded those eyes, those dazzling eyes

"Not yet, when the time is right" he said softly

I nodded once knowing I wouldn't get anything else from him, I'd have to wait. I walked over to him and hugged him tightly, my arms wrapping around his broad figure from behind

My hands wandered over his chest and curled over his shoulders, letting my face bury itself on his back Jay let himself relax and let out a shaky breath

If I had to wait a bit longer so be it, if it means the end of my life to save Jay's, I'd do it in a heartbeat. I've known him long enough to see that he would do the same but this is no fairytale. It's not some prince charming coming to save me because I'm the only one who can save myself the the lives of others

Not so long ago I'd wished I'd never been born into this life, this world but everybody has their purpose, their reason for living and this is mine. I sad smile curved it's way to my lips and I detatched myself from Jay