Reborn Book 2 (a magi x reader fanfic)

Breathe me

TRIGGER WARNING!!! (Depressive episode ) ((I just want to make sure that no one gets upset with this chapter))

'Maybe I am the mistake...'

Help, I have done it... again...

After an hour or two of full on running. I found an old, small, abandoned house in the middle of a big field. I walked inside and sat in an dusty dark corner. I pulled my knees up to my chest and buried my face into them. I sat there and just cried.

I, have been here many times before...

In my first life. I was diagnosed with depression... I took pills for it so it was fine. But... now I'm in a world that doesn't have anti depressants. I never realized how this happy and great world could turn so dark and empty.

Hurt, myself again today...
And. The worst part is there's
No. One. Else. To. Blame!

I should have told him sooner. I should have told everyone sooner. What is wrong with me?! I have no one. No one else to talk to, to turn to, to love, or... to blame for this...
Well. I guess I have to blame myself.

Be my friend. Hold me

I've lost everything...
I grab fist fulls of hair and pull. Crying turns to yelling. And my body tenses up to a rock.

Wrap me up. Unfold me

I hit my head with my hands. "Stupid, stupid STUPID!" I yell at myself. I stand up.

I am small, and needy

I start kicking and hitting things. And crying and yelling. I do this for awhile until my fists are bloody and
my toes are in pain.

Warm me up...

Still standing, I grab my hair again. I looked at the mirror I had broken before and stared at the mess that was me. My e/c eyes were bloodshot and filled with tears. My s/c cheeks were red and tearstained. My hair was stuck in the tears and I sat there. Just staring at myself. My heart was filled with hatred....

And breathe me~

Not hatred for people... but... hatred for myself. I hear heavy breathing behind me. I turn around and see,

"Yunan?"

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Oof. That was a hard chapter. Yes it was short but I don't want to make you peeps feel to sad. But another chapter will be up this week! And I might make some more sad chapters but, nothing like this one (hopefully) so yeah. Once again I love you peeps and you all are great! Love you all, and stay safe! :3
-Lee