my my my! | t.chalamet ; book 1

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imessage between 'timotay' and 'nattyboo'

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nattyboo
i'm sorry :(
i miss u already ugh

timotay
:(((
its okay

nattyboo
fuck off i wish
i was still there
with u :((
i feel so bad bc i said
i'd be with u to all
these places and now
i'm not :(((

timotay
its okay!!!!
i just miss you but
we have our own lives
and i don't want you
to stop your life just
to be with me, you have
things to do, commitments
natalia, we both do
but that doesn't change
anything between us at all

nattyboo
i know :(
i suck

timotay
stop that!!!
you don't suck
stop putting yourself
down
you're amazing
and i want the best for you
we'll be seeing each other
so soon anyway

nattyboo
i know i'm sorry
i just hate that i
basically promised
you i'd be along with
you through this all
and next thing we know
i'm jumping on a plane
in a complete different
direction to you
and leaving early

timotay
like i said its okay
let me know when
you land safely
and good luck :)

nattyboo
:( <3 thank you
my angel
i don't deserve you

timotay
<3 you do

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imessage between 'nat' and 'gab'
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nat
gabby
are you able to
pick me up from
the airport?

gab
yeah sure
is everything okay

nat
no not really
i had to come home
super early for new
york fashion week
at last minute and
oh god gabby
:(((
i'm so stressed and
sad and ugh
i had a panic attack
before i got on the plane
and i was all alone and
i was just sobbing half
the plane ride
i can't believe
this was torture :(

gab
oh my goodness :(
nat :(
i'll pick you up
i'm on my way rn
pls try and relax
read a book or listen
to music
remember what mum
would do when u got
like that

nat
yeah
i wish she was here rn :(

gab
oh baby :(
its okay, i'm coming xx

nat
thank you i love
you so much

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when Gabby arrived at the airport, she rushed in to find her little sister. when found, her heart broke at the sight.

She had never seen her so empty. Natalia was known to be a shy and anxious person, but positivity radiated off of her continuously. she was a joy to be around, Gabby could hardly recognise her.

they said their hello's and got into the car, the soft music from the radio played in the background as Natalia rested her head against the window.

"How was your trip?" she asked carefully.

"Cut short."

silence.

"Talk to me," Gabby said softly to her sister, almost begging.

Natalia let out a little sigh, "I love my job, i love whats going on— but i'm just annoyed, you know? I got told i wouldn't get the chance to be in New York fashion week so to get the call saying i made it in at last minute was amazing, but it also didn't sit right," she took a breath and spoke carefully, "the trip was good— amazing, actually. i'm just sad because i left so abruptly. Armie and Elizabeth probably think badly of me and Timothée is probably disappointed. he said he didn't care but i know he does."

"— it was so rushed, i didn't even get to say a proper goodbye, they were in the middle of a fucking interview." Natalia was starting to get angry, so angry she got teary.

"i feel like such a fucking dick. you should have seen timmy's face when he saw me get up and leave. he was so confused, so lost. i hate that i made him feel like that." she wiped her eyes and shook her head, "after is london fashion week so i won't be going to LA with him like i promised. i don't mind! i know it makes me sound so selfish and ungrateful— i'm so fucking grateful and blessed for whats happening but i also just feel so empty all of a sudden. i don't know whether its because i'm overwhelmed or i just don't know how to handle whats happening."

Gabby looked over at her sister and gave her a soft smile, grabbing over and holding her hand in hers.

"i'm so exhausted, Gabs. i hate it. —maybe i'm not cut out for this, maybe tim and i aren't suppose to be together, maybe— maybe i should cut things off before they get too serious—"

"shut up, seriously." Gabby snatched her hand away from her sisters, "You know thats stupid, right? if you wanted to stop things before they got 'too serious' you should have never started. you two are falling in love— i'd not be surprised if you were in love. Thing's are different for you now and you'll just have to get used to it, and it'll take time but you will. both of your lives are different but also so similar, you both can afford to make things work, and i have no doubt in the world that Timothée doesn't believe that. i can understand if he was annoyed— sad even, but with the lives you both live, everything is unpredictable. you can't blame yourself for that."

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I WANTED TO UPLOAD SOMETHING SO I DECIDED TO MAKE A LIL TURN AND MAKE THJNGS A LIL SAD MAYBE LOL JUST GETITNG MY FEELINGS OUT VIA NATALIA. I HOPE THIS WAS OKAY I KNOW I LEFT IT A LIL STUPIDLY BUT I HAD NOTHING RLY TO ADD. NOT DRAMA BUT THE TONE OF A FEW CHAPTERS MAY CHANGE A LIL, IDK I HOPE YOU ENJOY IT NONETHELESS AND CARRY ON READING AND YEAH. I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH THENK YOU FOR EVERYTHING I HOPE YOU'RE NOT ALL COMPLETELY DONE W ME LOL
(also i have no clur as to where we are anymore in this book so i decided to take a different route and follow natalia along instead of timmy and then we'll resume at the BAFTA's lol!)
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