THE HEARTBREAK SERIES

all in my head

  — for her.  

  Because at the end of the day, he's your best friend's boyfriend.
And maybe putting your best friend's happiness before yours is the right thing to do.

Sometimes you were annoyed with yourself after the numerous amount of times you assumed that he even liked you. From the number of times he sat next to you during the 9AM biology lecture to the times where you've bumped into him at the library even though it's not midterm or finals season for fucks' sake, you've seen his face everywhere.

Jeon Jungkook. He was the reason why you stayed up all night staring at your ceiling after wondering why he has been stumbling into your life when the last thing you asked the heavens to do was to give you a boyfriend; a distraction. You're at the peak of your degree and with you doing tremendously well in class, the last thing you needed was a boyfriend.

But obviously, the heavens were having too much fun playing and fucking up your feelings to the point where you too, started to take more notice of all your encounters with him and where you too, started to fuck up your own feelings.

And now here you were, slowly falling in love with the boy who sat next to you in all of your 9AM biology lectures. And now here you were, naive and all, receiving these encounters and good deeds from him as acts of admiration and infatuation when in all reality—

"I really like your best friend."

"I—what?"

You stare at him with slightly widened eyes, but his innocent, doe-like ones stared at yours alarmingly before you snap out of it. "Uh—I mean—what do you mean?"

"Your best friend, you know, the girl who sits with you in our biology lecture, the girl who tags along with you when you both study at the library?" He says nervously while he scratches the back of his neck.

You blink once, twice, and suddenly, your burst out into nervous laughter. He looks at you as if you have ten heads, but you playfully slap his arm to ease the tension in the atmosphere. "Oh, her? That crazy girl that sits next to me and is basically with me almost all day?"

He nods his head innocently and you inwardly sigh because wow you are basically my ideal type in living and breathing form I truly don't deserve you, so all you could do is give him two thumbs up as a sign of your approval.

"I mean, that's great! It's great that my crazy best friend finally has a guy that actually admires her. She'll be so head over heels for you when she finds out that you like her—"

"Don't tell her!" He exclaims while cutting you off and you jump at his sudden tone. He looks at you with doubt and defeat before shrugging his shoulders and mumbling a soft, "I don't even think she'll like me.."

You roll your eyes at him before raising an eyebrow at him, "I'm pretty sure she likes you, that's probably why she's been all up my ass this whole semester."

"You—You think so?" He stutters and you brightly smile at him, nodding your head eagerly although you could feel your heart start to shatter. He mirrors your smile before pulling you into a celebratory hug. "Thank you, thank you, thank you! I can't wait to take her out on a date—"

"First, get your hands off of me, I barely know you." You say sternly and he gently puts your small figure back onto the floor. You clear your throat and he finally shoves his hands back into his pockets. "Second, I'm not easily persuaded by any of my best friend's suitors, so don't think I'm an easy obstacle to pass, got it?"