Internet Friends | Dan Howell x Reader

Missed You

Soooo...it seems that most of you know my name now thanks to a certain few readers *cough* subscribbletoshane littleseal50 PhyerJynx IceicleV2 *cough*

But for those of you who don't know, it's Caly, but u probs could already figure that out from Calymari.

So yeah.

Happy birthday to Phil!!

Thought I might add that.

Enjoy~

(y/n)'s POV

There was a slight commotion and I listened intently to my surroundings.

"Hey Rach?" I heard an unrecognizable voice say. Rachel was my nurse currently. I had become relatively attached to her after Dan's visits ceased. I can understand it must be hard to see your love like this everyday, but at least once in a while would be nice. Rachel was my only friend here besides Phil. "There's a new patient they assigned you to. I'm supposed to pick up where you left off with Miss (l/n)." she said.

No!

I just got attached to Rachel. Damn it.

"Uh, it's (y/n), Melony." Rachel said, and I felt a pang of guilt. She was sticking with me.

"Okay, then. Your shift is over by the way." Melony said. I felt Rachel tuck my blanket and stare at me. She quickly left and I felt rather empty. I wanted to sigh, but I just bottled it up with the rest of my impossible functions. Melony worked for a while before the door opened. Phil was here. Phil and Melony greeted each other and Phil nestled himself in his chair. There was a long silence until I heard a quiet sob.

  "Please come back. For my sake. For Dan's sake." Phil murmured, a tear dropping on my hand. He stayed for a while, until visiting hours were over, barely speaking.

"I can't visit you anymore (y/n). It's too hard." Phil said, cracking. He left and I felt so angry I could be shaking.

So angry.

I want to rip all these tubes out of me. 

I want to open my eyes. 

I want to stand.

I want to walk.

I want to live.

I want to see Phil.

I want to see Dan.

I want--

I want--

My eyes shot open and my breath stuck in my throat, choking on air. The bright lights in my room were blinding and I squinted, not wanting to close my eyes again. My body was weak from the lack of proper food, just the nutrients I needed pumped into my blood stream. I gasped, breathing heavily in the sickly smell of the hospital. I picked up my hand, watching it shake before me. I can see. It was like being blind for 2 months and then suddenly you can see. It felt so nice. I felt so free, even though I was trapped in this hospital. I pushed myself up, determined to sit up and I succeeded, to much pain and agony. Everything was healed from the 2 months, but I still hurt.

"And so I told hi--" my doctor turned to look at me sitting upright in my bed, staring straight at him. "Oh my." he said. Melony followed in quickly, gasping when she saw me.

"I'm awake." I said, my voice raspy, but prominent. "I can speak!" I said, excitedly, my heart rate monitor speeding up.

"Woah, slow down there." Melony said, glancing at my heart rate monitor.