loss for words

i hate that i love you

recently, i've made a mistake.
a stupid mistake that I can't believe I made.

i fell in love.

i blame you and your sweet ways, i blame myself for being stupid enough to fall for it.
i let you do this to me. why?

i don't want to be this way, it holds me back like I'm bounded by chains. on a leash that you're holding.

was it really that easy, that simple to fall for someone like you? a question i should be asking myself. I'm stupid, so stupid. i shouldn't have let this happen but you made it difficult. hard for me to resist.

it was like i was dying of starvation and you were the only one who offered me food. you controlled me.

and i let you.

everything about you makes my heart skip a beat, my voice crack and my head hurt. i'm in love with you yet i hate you, but the difference between the two was getting blurry to read. you make me confused, you make me weak,

and i hate that.

i hate that i love you.