Your name feels so strange in my hand yet as if it is a newborn child, I cradle it, holding it so safe, as if letting it go would result in losing you and although I know loss on a person level, I am still scared.
Scared that like a child you will grow old and tired of my constant worry.
Scared that the moment I learn to hold you without worried tears,
you'll be big enough to stand and your name will be unfamiliar,
you'll be distant.
I will never hold your name like a baby, or even at all, again.
Like a childless mother.
Like an unfit father.
I am scared.
Of losing you.
Of losing the one good thing I have left.
Of losing the right to even utter your name in the quiet whispers of hush.
Of losing
You.
YOU ARE READING
La La Land
PoetryYou exist. That is the best thing you can acheive. That is why I love you.