i should've known better

it's late again

my heart rate is increasing
and my breath is unsteady
i'm up late again
and my eyes are getting heavy

but to write one more line
it's all i want to do
is just to stay up at night
writing about you

it's the way things have to be now
please know that you still bring me joy
it's not all sad times
our past is something i don't want to destroy

to say i love you
is to take a breath
you are the light within me
but i don't know what's left

is the light dimming
or is that just me?
the thought of it going out
is to much to see

i want you
f o r e v e r
even if that means
we can't be together

i can still have you in pieces
if you haven't given up yet
i'll still be here if you need me
that's a promise i won't forget

i'll glue it to my brain
i'll think about you in the waves
this storm is calming down
and you are the sun that comes out from the clouds

that weight on my chest is now
nothing but a memory
but i fear if we get close again
it'll come back you see

so i'll write and i'll write and i'll write
about my blues
maybe these words
will make it through to you