You always call me
I never failed to look back
right at you
Right into your eyes
calling me to the edge
of harming myself
like what you did one time
in one of my classes.
I lit up the bunsen burner,
you gave out a tall flame
big enough to burn me but you
were there
Convincing me to put my hand on
the beautiful flames of the dancing heat.
And, remember that one time?
When I got sooo drunk
during a girl's night out?
A pack of dogs came to us
one of my friends ditched me;
she was scared;
and you were there hugging me,
letting me stay still with my other friend.
You were caressing my head telling
me that they won't bite
even if they were ferrals.
When the car doors were unlocked,
you wanted me to open it while
driving at speeds unimaginable.
You are always calling me to the edge.
I was made to believe that beyond
fear is bliss
And you were there
Every time
Whenever I clean the knives;
Or even when I simply walk up the stairs;
Or even when I lean beyond the railings;
You are there as if as though you
cared enough for what I am feeling.
But you are the enemy.
