Delinquent: iKON Kim Jinhwan

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"I love you, Junseo." Jinhwan croaked.

"You're not going to fucking die!!" I screamed.

"Say you love me too..."

"I love you Jinhwan. I love you, so don't leave me." I whispered.

"I'm sorry." Jinhwan muttered breathlessly, as his eyes closed. His chest rose, and fell, and rose, until...

it fell, and stayed like that.

I screamed, grabbing Jinhwan's cold hand. Tears fell down my cheeks, and I felt two arms grab me. "HE'S NOT DEAD! HE'S NOT!!!"

I flailed around, screaming and crying. "JINHWAN!!! DON'T LEAVE ME!! PLEASE!!"

"Junseo, JUNSEO!!" A voice yelled, arms grabbing mine. "You're having a nightmare!!"

I panted heavily as I tried to even out my breath. My eyes fluttered open, bright lights greeting me.

"That was just a nightmare, Junseo." Minho said.

I sat up immediately, looking around. "Where is Jinhwan?!"

"You can't see him right now." Minho said.

"WHY?" I asked desperately.

"He's going under surgery." Minho said.

I let out a deep breath. "I-is he okay?"

Minho nodded. "The doctors said he will make it."

I sighed and laid my head back down.

"I'm so sorry." Minho said.

"..."

"This is all my fault. I should've just died so they got what they wanted. Look what I did to you guys-I fucked your lives!!"

"Don't say that you should've died. Because we all risked ourselves to save you, so you better not die." I said. "There's no use in blaming yourself. It's over."

"...it's not." Minho said.

"Why?"

"They will just find me again." Minho said.

"Then we're moving." I said.

"I'll move." Minho said.

"All of us will move." I said.

"See? I'm messing up your life! You all are doing this for me, when I don't deserve it!"

"We're doing it because we care, so shut the fuck up!" I yelled. "I'm done. Well talk about this later."

Minho sighed in frustration and walked out of the hospital room.

•••

"Junseo-sshi, Jinhwan-sshi has finished his surgery." The nurse said after entering my room.

I sat up immediately. "Please let me see him."

"As you wish."

I entered Jinhwan's room, my face immediately brightening up seeing his face.

I sat down next to him. "Don't do that ever again."

Jinhwan smiled sheepishly. "Sorry."

I bursted out in tears and crushed him in a hug. "I'd fucking kill you if you died."

"How though?"

"I'll find a way!" I said through my sobs.

Jinhwan chuckled. "I'm not leaving anytime soon."

"Good." I said.

"Can you release me, it feels as if your crushing my ribs to pieces." Jinhwan said.

I released him. "My bad."

"I'm glad you're not hurt." Jinhwan said, locking his hand in mine.

"I thought you were dead, I was so scared." I muttered. "He shot you 3 fucking times!!"

"Yeah. And it hurts like hell." Jinhwan said. "Doc said it was a miracle I was brought here in time.

"...I'm sorry Jinhwan." I said.

"For what?"

"For bringing you in this." I said.

"I already said this before, I would go even if you didn't let me."

"You nearly fucking died because of me!"

"I don't care." Jinhwan said. "It's the past now, so don't worry, okay?" He cupped my cheeks pulling me in for a kiss.

As I melted in his embrace, thoughts wandered around my mind. I don't deserve you.

We shouldn't be together anymore.