new arrival

India reunited with her daddy

" i was planning on seeing her when we came back to England"

" so that would mean more months of India being upset that is cruel John and i thought you loved her"

' i do love her don't you fucking dare try to make out that i don't i love both of my girls but i cant" 

John stopped and looked down at the ground

" You can't please continue is it you can't be bothered being a dad to her no more"

" I CAN'T FACE HER PAUL I CAN'T LOOK INTO HER EYES AND SEEING DISAPPOINTMENT IN THEM OR EVEN WORSE HATE. I CAN'T FACE HER KNOWING WHAT I DONE"

" what do you mean knowing what you done"

" KNOWING THAT IT WAS ME THAT BROKE UP HER FAMILY I KNEW SHE WOULD BE MISSING ME BUT IM A FUCKING COWARD I CAN'T FACE HER YET I CAN'T DO IT PAUL"

" it will be hard John i am not going to lie and say it will be OK she is hurt angry and confused and so much more but if you leave it any longer it will get worse and she may not want to see you again"

" it's to late now i have to go soon"

" Paul why is there shouting?"

India asked while walking into the living room and seeing her daddy for the first time in months and he looked so different he was so tiny and his hair was a lot longer and he was wearing all black and he was holding the hand of this strange looking woman. India could hardly see her face as it was hidden by her hair and she scared India

John's eyes went huge seeing his little girl standing in the doorway while staring at him and he was surprised at how much she grew she seemed so much taller than the last time he saw her and his eyes filled with tears. he missed his princess while he was gone

" why are you out of bed. The doctor said you had to rest"

" i heard shouting and got scared"

India went straight over to Paul and sat beside him and grabbed his hand mirroring the way John and Yoko were sitting

" why were you at the doctors Princess?" John asked while India just stared at him taking in the man who no longer looked like her daddy

" she has the cold" Paul answered making John laugh

" you took her to the doctors for the cold"

" well im new to this looking after a kid stuff im learning while i go'

" why is she not back to her mums?" he asked not being able to say her name

" because she is too sad because you"s stopped loving each other but the man on the tv said that that woman stole you away from my mummy"

" India i told you that you are not allowed to watch any other channel apart from the cartoon channel" Paul said

" i was watching the cartoon channel but the man popped up on the screen and talked about it and it showed a picture of daddy with her and Hollie"

" you knew that he went to see Hollie why did you not tell me?"

" because i did not want to get into trouble but it was not my fault i was on the cartoon channel but they have news there now"

"im sorry that you had to see that sweetie"

" Daddy why did you see her but not me is it because im to blame for you and mummy not loving each other no more because i made you mad the night of the dinner by calling you John"

" Princess it is not your fault at all i just stopped loving your mother and i was feeling sad so i left so we could be happy again"

" but mummy is not happy she is sad she cries alot"

" im sorry she cries but she will be happier in time"

" why did you see Hollie and not me"

" because i was scared"

" you were scared of me"

" yeah i was scared in case you hated me for making mummy sad and i didn't want you to be sad i was not brave enough to see you for ages"

' when will you and mummy start loving each other again"

" we wont love each other that way again i don't think. i still love her just not as much as i used at least i don't think i do"

Yoko shot John a look and he looked down at the ground

" what i meant is  we wont be together again like we were before" John added

India started to cry 

John got off his seat and lifted India into his arms and held her so tight while whispering how sorry he was into her ear until she stopped crying

" daddy loves you India forever and always"

" i love you to daddy"