heartstrings - fillie

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«CHAPTER ONE»

i'm totally normal. except, i'm not.

my name is millie. my full name is millie bobby brown. i go to school and i have friends. i interact with people and i observe people. i do normal things, all the while containing this knowledge that i have for some unknown, impossible reason.

walking through the halls or walking down the street, i know more about the people i pass than they could ever imagine. somehow, this aspect of life is available to me.

everywhere i look, there are strings. red, shadow-like strings. they're not real, i can just see them. they're attached to almost everyone's heart. rarely do i find people without them. and somehow, they connect soulmates. but only i can see them, and it didn't take me long to realize that.

i started calling them "heart-strings" at a very young age. it was just the nickname that developed in my mind.

back then, i didn't understand it all. it would frustrate me when no one knew of the heart-strings i spoke of. soon i realized it was just me. but what did the strings mean?

my parents helped answer that. you see, they didn't have a heart-string. they would fight and fight, and the little that i knew of kids with separated parents worried me. but of course, like all children would be, i was hopeful that my parents would get past it and be happy again. however, that was not the case. i was pretty young, around 7, when their fighting came to be too much, and they divorced.

my mother got custody of me, and a year later, she brought home a man. i noticed how they shared a heart-string. she introduced him to me as her new boyfriend. all the pieces were coming together. i realized how the best couples seemed to share heart-strings. then a few months later, i asked my mother if she loved her boyfriend. she said yes, her smile wide and her response sure. right then and there, little 8-year-old me realized i had the power to see true love, in the form of strings.

i've only ever told one person; finn.

finn wolfhard is my best friend, and the only person i'd trust this with. how could i possibly keep this all to myself anyway? i fully expected him to think i was insane when i told him. i expected him to give me a look and laugh. but i told him anyway, and he believed me.

that's partly why i fell for him. and boy, did i fall for him. head over heels i fell for that boy.

after i learned what the heart-strings meant, you can only imagine my heartbreak realizing that he does not share one with me. our hearts are not connected. fate has decided that we don't belong together.

i have this immense frustration, and anger at this damn curse. there's something so infuriating about knowing that he will never love me back. something so sad about knowing that he is destined to be with someone else. it kills me every day.

all the times he's asked me about his soulmate, asked if i'd seen her yet. it's like a knife to the chest. and one of these days, i'll have a big hole where my heart should be.

and i know who his destined lover is. i know exactly who she is. but i haven't told him. when i first saw her and the heart-string, i immediately steered us away. no way was i going to let them meet. it's selfish. incredibly selfish. it's cruel and mean. i'm basically denying him his true love that he's meant to be with forever. so i plan on never telling him.

her name is iris apatow. she's kind and beautiful, and very popular. she's perfect. which only makes sense, since finn is equally as perfect. but i'd steer him away again, and as many times as i need to, even though it makes me feel sick to do so. i'd do it again because i don't want to let go. i don't want to give him up. i want to continue to love him without heartbreak, as though i have a choice.

it's horrible isn't it? how we think we have a choice, but really, we don't. there's this pre-picked person out there for us, and it's made my opinion on love very sad.

i just hope i never meet my soulmate.

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the first chapter!

i'm so excited to share this story, i've been thinking it up for a while and i'm finally writing it ahhh!!

i'd like to dedicate this chapter to SARAH the queen of fanfic, who might be just as excited as i am for this story.

ily sarah, i hope u enjoyed this even though ik u read it in like two seconds.

anyway, stick around bc things bouta get spicy ;)

sincerely,
lucia