poems.

schizophrenic.

today
I greeted myself again
my other well-known friend
gosh-it's so dark,
so aggressive

I don't think
anyone could guess
how bad I actually am

today I greeted you
my dark side of the moon
and listened to
electronic bass
to numb your screaming in my head
I want to drink
and I want to throw
throw my other side away

go world, 

fuck yourself
cause I could punch against everything
I would love to see red again
just to show myself
that your pain is bullshit
compared to mine

but we're one and the same
like water waiting in the sky or
the so-called clouds
we are
two versions of myself
and I hate to be like you
and I love it so badly

I need to be a wolf
to bite you out of this cage
determined as my body
I like it black,
I don't talk much
I observate,
judging all this obedient people
I over-concentrate,
I radiate,
state to never coming back
but
I have to commit
that I hide you as long as possible

cause
you were the one
causing these scars
you were the one
beating my father to the floor
you were the one
running into the woods
all you've learned is
to run away
but I am one stay, you know?

I love
so much
I don't run
so get over it

you're my dark side
the one destroying mirrors,
if I risk looking into them
the one keeping me alone
when I need good company

but we're
one and the same
and I get over it
so calm down

please, sit down, take a step to the side,
cause I decide
what's gonna happen
better don't forget
that you're still just a shade
of the little girl I once was
feeded with hate and doubts and pain
better don't forget
that you don't have to be that hard
I protect you

today
I greeted myself again
now 
I greet you goodbye