Beauty and the Beast

Chapter Nine

I wake up back in Masons bed, the covers nearly tucked up to my waist. I yawn and stretch, not remembering how I got from the Alpha meeting back to here. All I remember is what Damon said. I go to stand but feel lightheaded and lay back down.

Mason walls in a little while later. He has no shirt on and a thin layer of sweat covers his shoulders and back. He must of been working out. I can't help but notice he has a six (sorry about the spelling mistake before I was using my old tablet. It doesn't like to pick up what I type and then just kind of make stuff up) pack.

"Are you okay" he asks leaning towards me on the bed. I nodded and curled up into a ball. I don't see how he was shirtless. It was absolutely freezing. He must've thought I was scared because he said "you know I would never let anyone hurt you right." I nod again and start shivering.

He turns to the bathroom and takes a quick shower before crawling into the bed with me. Still shirtless though. I was fine with it since his skin was warm. Mason wrapped his arms around me and pulled me close.

"Your burning up" I look up at him confused. I feel fine except for the fact that I'm still cold. Maybe his immortality kept him from getting cold in here. Or the fact he was an Alpha. Either way I didn't feel sick. "I don't feel sick" I quickly tell him.

I was absolutely terrified of doctors and had enough run ins with them already. I didn't want to have to make today one of those days.

I had always been terrified of doctors. But that fear became greater when my uncle died in the hospital. Mostly because they killed him by giving him the wrong blood. The thought of a doctor injecting me with the wrong thing had always been something that scared me from then on.

Mason had his head buried in my hair like he tended to do. Just like I tended to cling onto his side in my sleep. It was just habits of ours. Trying to push the thought of doctors and killers and death out of my mind I started to think about mine and Mason's relationship again. If he was immortal and I wasn't how could this ever work out. Of course I wanted to go further in a relationship with him. Right now I had no clue what we were. Friends that cuddled and shared the occasional kiss? I don't think so.

He was my mate, that was something. But what were we right now in this moment. Did he consider me as something more. Did he know I could die and he couldn't. He knew that someone wanted to kill me, was he okay with the fact he might lose me. It clouds my head and is the only thing I can think about.

We're going to end up talking bout it sooner or later. Why not sooner, while I'm still young. "Mason." He gives me a hum in response letting me know he's listening. "I want to talk to you about something" I whisper. Still trying to figure out what to say in my head. He lifts his head up and looks at my face, searching to see if something's wrong. "Your an immortal... and I'm not... so... how would... this" I wave my hand around to try to show him my point "work out."

He smiles at me. "You mean how could we stay mates forever when only one of us can live forever" he clarifies. I nod. "Well that's easy when I mark you as mine and we become mates it will turn you immortal. I know we don't have a very clear relationship but I know your going through a lot right now. So I'm trying to give you a little space until you can think clearly and know what you truly want."

I feel stupid now. The way he puts it makes it seem so simple. I never really thought of it that way. Maybe he was right. I do need enough time to think clearly before I go around rushing into things. "That makes since."

"Trust me, you don't have to worry about me leaving you. I'll protect you... forever." I smile at the thought of forever. "Promise me one thing Mason please" I beg. He nods "anything for you." I sigh "if anything happens before you turn me immortal promise me you won't blame yourself and that, eventually, you'll move on." He nods "that's a big 'if', but I promise if something very unlikely happens to you I won't blame myself. But I don't plan on letting anything happen to you, ever" he hugs me possessively.

I needed time to myself. To think things through. I knew Mason would never let me leave. I had to do it when he wasn't aware. He would never leave without me. But he was a heavy sleeper. If I was quick I would easily be able to sneak past him. I knew this pack and it's boundaries like the back of my hand. It would be easy.

I knew I liked it here plenty. But deep down I knew this wasn't the place for me. I needed to figure out things for myself. It would be the only way I would find any kind of closure. I realized over the past few days I had become depressed. The thought of food made me nauseous, I kept zoning out, even death felt more like a welcoming thing than the end of my life.

The only thing that kept me going was Mason. Did I really want to leave behind the one thing keeping me alive. But even then I was already at risk with an alpha trying to kill me.

My thoughts kept fighting with each other. I had never been so confused in my life. I just wanted things to go back to the way they were. With my little sister annoying me 24/7. With me and my best friends singing and having fun. But things had changed. My best friend probably had no clue where I was, my sister.... was gone.

Mason kisses my head, "Are you okay?" I nodded and sighed. I knew I would never be able to do it.