In My Own Words

Loss of Trust

My heart is filled with the loss of trust.

My body is closed off,

And love is a must.

However I can't get close to anyone

Without thinking they are going to leave,

Because they all do.

I'm used to it.

And that will always be something on my mind,

How I can never trust someone,

Who says they will forever be by my side.

So when I get close to someone,

I start to drift apart from the shore that's safe,

And I go out in the open where it's cold.

Where my lungs will start to feel like they are trapped in a cage.

I have made many mistakes in my life,

And most of them are getting too close to people without realizing.

Soon they turn their backs,

And I am left alone.

They spread rumors,

That have come out of the unknown.

So when people say that I am their friend,

I get a small heart attack.

Because my mind starts turning,

And memories pass through my veins,

That made me regret trusting someone all over again,

No matter the dismay.