In My Own Words

What I Want...

There will always be something holding me back,

From the things I love,

And from the things I lack.

I want to travel the world

To see new people and new cultures,

But my dad will never let me go out of the country,

So I have to be trapped on the same land,

With no upper hand.

I want to be a doctor,

So I can save a life and finally know the feeling of achievement.

I want to help people,

But my mother says that I will spend too long stressing and studying,

Where I will never pay off my student loans,

Since I will be dedicating most of my life to schooling.

But all I want to do is go out there and make a difference!

I want to be who I am and scream out that I can do anything,

And that I can be free

And not be held back!

I just want to be me.

All my life,

I have been living in the same old small town,

With the same people that I have known since preschool.

I want to venture,

I want to leave this place that makes me feel like I am nobody.

I want to feel like I am something that is worth more than nothing.

I just want to be free

Without silently crying in pain and agony.

My parents blame it on that there will be no one to protect myself,

And that there are bad people in the countries I want to go to.

But the one thing that I don't get,

Is that bad people are everywhere,

And they are always ready to attack.

New Zealand, Australia, England, Ireland, Greece, Germany.

That's sounds like music to my ears in complete harmony.

I want to travel and save lives,

But how can I do that when my family wants to keep me inside?

My current situation is fully exclaimed in this poem... I am conflicted at the moment because I want to travel and make a difference, even if it is a small one. But I am incapable of doing that since my parents are so strict that it is very hard for me to do anything. I  am at the time in my life where I have to actually figure out what I want to do, and it got me thinking about how much I want to travel.

 It's not the best feeling in the world when you are talking to your family about plans for your future and they automatically turn it down... I have been talking about traveling since I was 12 years old, but their minds are off in another direction. I'm sure I will figure it out, but it's not that great when your parents aren't allowing you to follow your dreams.