at first it is
anger,
just like yours
red hot
nothing else
i don't deserve this
i don't deserve this
then it is
fear
will you
kill me?
will you
hit me this time?
will i die?
it is
meltdown
crying
tears
escalation
heart pounding fast fast
anger mixed in
i don't know how i feel
hide in the bathroom
shaking
out of control
the urges
the urges
the urges
promise me sweet salvation
promise me an escape
before the
shut down
i feel nothing
i am nothing
again and again
you have taught me
this is
my cry
for help
