#PyreSB : Why Sleeping Beauty Decided To Burn The World

It's Too Easy

Note:
Don't forget to share your thoughts. Sinulat ko 'to kasi pareho kami ng mga katunangan ng characters. Pyre is my way of grasping for answers. About life, death, purpose and existence. At maappreciate ko talaga kung iseshare niyo yung take niyo about these matters. Kasi ang hirap minsan. Just bare your thoughts and let them bleed.

You can take down some of your walls here and share your fears.

Tutal lahat naman tayo troubled in one way or another.

-Josh Argonza

Pyre IX

It's Too Easy

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Tyron

The destroyer.

Yan ang bansag sa akin ng mga kakilala ko. Mabigat daw kasi yung kamay ko. Lahat daw ng bagay na nahahawakan ko, nabibitak at nasisira.

They easily branded me as someone who wreaks havoc. Akala siguro nila na okay lang sa akin ang makita ang sarili kong sumisira ng isang bagay. Akala siguro nila okay lang sakin ang makasakit nang hindi ko naman talaga sinasadya.

They never gave me the benefit of the doubt. They never thought how much pain it brought me. They never really knew the hell that I have to go through every time I accidentally break something that I really like. Bakit nga naman? Ako naman nakasira diba? Why would they have to understand someone who sinned? Someone who made a mistake?

The sinner might feel regret. It's simple but it's also hard to realize that when you close your heart to the subject. Mahirap isipin na nasasaktan din ang may kasalanan. Mas madaling isipin na ang biktima lang ang nagdurusa. It's hard to realize that the most painful thing that you can do to yourself is to hurt something or someone that you really love. And it's even harder to realize that that also applies to everyone. Kahit sa mga may kasalanan. But perception is a bitch. It prevents us from thinking objectively. We are too much often swayed by our prejudices and emotions. At minsan para mas maging convenient para satin ang sitwasyon, we often turn a blind eye. 

Apathy.

Pero kasalanan ko naman talaga kaya wala akong karapatang magreklamo. Wala akong dahilan para magpalusot pa. Sarili ko rin namang kagagawan kaya lahat ng bagay na nalalapit sakin nagkakandasira sira. Walang matinong natitira.

Then one day I realized something. Kapag nasasaktan ka, kapag nakakaramdam ka ng takot, ano ang dapat mong gawin? Simple lang ang nahanap kong kasagutan. You just have to turn something that hurts you into something that makes you happy.
Mahirap sa umpisa. Sa bawat bagay na nasisira ko, mas lalong bumababa ang tingin ko sa sarili ko. Halimaw ako. Demonyo ako. Imbis na mabawasan, nadadagdagan ang sakit na nararamdaman ko.

Pero nagbago ang lahat nang makilala ko si Barbie. For the first time since I can remember, I didn't break someone who came this close to me. Hindi siya katulad ng mga laruan ko nung bata ako. She was already broken when she came into my life. Most people treated her as trash because broken objects are virtually worth nothing. But that broken woman saved me. She turned my pain into happiness. And I'll be damned if I'll exchange her for someone else. Even if they're unbroken and undamaged unlike her.

But perception is a bitch. Hindi pa rin ako pwedeng maging masaya ng lubusan. People has this vindictive nature where they don't want to see someone happier than themselves. Siguro kasi sa loob loob nila, sa tingin nila kailangang may magdusa para sila mismo lumigaya. Kailangang may maghirap para maging balanse ang galaw ng tadhana. Kailangang may isakripisyo.