The Diary of an Introvert

Entry 11.

Diary entry: Tuesday, September 19, 2017.

"Erza, let's go on a date tomorrow."

Jellal said at lunch. He met me again at the same spot as yesterday. We sat and ate together. He brought his bento that his sister makes. It was decorated cutely and he kind of noticed me having a covetous expression that he told me to exchange my bread for his bento. I couldn't do that because that was his lunch and my lunch was too plain but he insisted. Jellal's sister seems like a good cook because everything tasted so different and nice. I have never gotten a bento so for me, eating from one brought me utter joy.

It was too sudden when he asked me to go on a date. I almost choked on the broccoli and had to gulp down the entire milk carton.

It was embarrassing...But he laughed and seeing him smile made me forget how silly I acted.

"So?" He asked. "Whats your answer?"

I wiped my mouth with my handkerchief and hesitantly nodded.

Obviously, I have never gone on a date before so I became anxious. My mind began to fill with strange and disconcerting thoughts. I might have a slight idea of what dates are like but experiencing one is whats making me agitated.

What do I do?

I'm so nervous I can't think properly...

Perhaps this is the right time to spill the beans to Levy. She might and is the only person who can help me.

After dinner, when we were sitting in front of the T.V watching 'My Obsession with Him' I summoned my courage and turned to Levy.

"Levy-Chan..."

"Hm?" She looked at me.

"Can you turn down the volume a little? I have something to tell you..."

She did so and looked at me in confusion.

"What is it, Erza?"

"The thing is..." My heart was beating rapidly because I wasn't sure how Levy would react. "I've started dating a boy in my school..."

There was a complete silence in the room. The unclear noises from the T.V were clear to my ears and oddly, Levy had a blank expression as if she didn't hear what I said.

"What?" She asked.

"Eh?"

"What did you say?"

"I-I'm dating someone--"

"EHH?!" Levy abruptly jumped up from her seat with the most confounded expression I had ever seen. "REALLY, ERZA? YOU'RE NOT LYING TO ME, ARE YOU?"

"N-no--"

"ERZA!" Levy, as abruptly as she jumped up, sat back down and tightly placed her hands on my shoulders. "Who is he? Who confessed first? Have you held hands yet? Have you gone on a date yet?" She endlessly asked me such questions and didn't give me an opening to explain to her that thats what I want to talk to her about.

It was after a half hour or so that she ran out of energy and drank an entire can of soda in one go.

And that's when it was my turn to answer all her questions.

I told her everything from the startling beginning to my suspended ending.

She listened to me attentively as if I was teaching her favorite subject; History.

After hearing what I had to say, Levy fell deep in thought. Or rather that's what I thought but in reality, she was thinking of what color to wear on our wedding...

Seriously, sometimes, I can't just trust her to be on the same page as me.

"Alright, so you're just worried about a simple date, right?"

I nodded.

"Well, all you need to do is be yourself, Erza and of course, look pretty but since you're already pretty you have nothing to worry about." She smiled.

And I thought Levy would help me ease my anxiety.

Her positive words aren't helping me one bit but yet I'm nodding like I understand her.

I don't want to ruin her cheerful mode so I kept listening to what she had to say about her previous dates.

Of course, she didn't mention her ex-dead-boyfriend but the more she talked about her memories, the more I could sense her tone shaking.

I stopped her midway, excusing myself to bring some tea for the both us and fortunately, the topic quickly changed to what I would wear for tomorrow.

Me and Levy talked until 1 am and went to our rooms once we realized that Levy had to work extra hours tomorrow so she needed a extra sleep.

I don't think I'll be able to sleep because my heart is still restless.

No matter how much I try to disturb my mind from different things, the idea of going on a date would freeze me like a statue.

I know it's weird but I don't want tomorrow to come...

I wouldn't know what to do and I would just make Jellal uncomfortable.

But it can't be helped...Tomorrow has to come.

Tomorrow I have to go on a date.

Because it was a word I had given him.

I can't take it back.