Never Forever

Cold Lips

I never imagined that that one answer would be the answer to all of my questions of the future. But of course, I never saw it coming..

Mall

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It was December 23rd. I had just got[ten] done with performing a weeks worth of shows at the Playhouse and this would be our last official show. Only, it wasn't a real show. We were just singing songs from the play and it all kinda felt like we were in one of those musicals where everyone is talking and then someone randomly just bursts into song..

Which is exactly how it was..

Although I absolutely hate most musicals, I do admit that making the musical and being apart of it is wayyyyyyy more entertaining than just watching it.

Anyways..
Hoseok came to see my dad & I at the Mall and watched us sing at random times to the people who were around us.

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After it was over, we traveled around the Mall for a bit and my dad allowed us to travel alone together. We ended up meeting up at JcPenny's but my dad was taking a really long time coming back from whatever he had decided to do. At this point, Hoseok had decide to check me out in my leather outfit and black boots. He decided to let me know how attracted he was to me.

His figure, approaching me slowly. Our glowing, innocent figures standing behind a pillar at the front of the store. My eyes involuntarily locked onto his when trying to sneak a glance and his eyes were just waiting for mine to meet his.

Time stopped..

And for a split second, I could stare into his beautiful brown eyes.

They then began to charge at me. It was so fast that I couldn't process what was happening before..

There was nothing.

I paused and opened my eyes as my fingers flew to my lips. Something was wrong. "What's wrong?" I shook my head. I knew what had happened, but I was disappointed. "Is it supposed to be like this?" "What?" "Well.. I always thought that my first kiss would have this spark and stuff that the books describe it to be.. I guess they were wrong.." He just stared at me. "I'm sorry, I-" My lips were sealed when they met his. It wasn't anything like I had read in any book but it wasn't anything casual either. We kept pecking for kisses until I had to stop him. "What's wrong?" "My dad is coming!" I was a nervous wreck. I was worried that my dad had seen us, but when I had gotten in the car, he didn't say anything. I knew he hadn't seen us.

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"Baby. Are you okay?" I snapped out of my phase and looked at him. "Yeah. Just thinking." "What are you thinking about?"

About our first kiss and everything else.. Was my first thought.

"Why you wanna know, nosey?" I teased. "Because your thoughts are all of my baby's business." He grinned and poked my nose. "So?" "So.. My job is to love you and make sure that all of your business is taken care of. Because your business is my buisness.. Because you're my baby.." He wrapped his arm around me and kissed my cheek. "Mmmm." I purred and smiled.

"I Love You." "No you don't." I laughed. "Yes I do." We argued like this until he pulled me close and kissed my lips passionately for a long time. "I Love You." He cupped my face as I bitterly tried to hide a smile by biting my lips. "I Love You Too." He kissed my forehead once more as I checked the clock. I frowned.

"What is it? 5:20?"
"It's six o'clock." I mumbled bitterly without looking up at him. I felt the wind shift from a cool breeze to a cold wind. Even his warmth couldn't bring me comfort in this moment. "I'm sorry baby. I promise I'll call you everyday and come visit you next weekend." I nodded as I began to take off his jacket.

"No. Keep it. Give it back to me when I come back." I nodded and allowed him to kiss me. Our cold lips touching in the evening wind was enough to melt my heart into tears. But I held them back and began to redevelop my hard shell.

The car ride was quiet on the way back to my house. He tried to hold my hand but I wouldn't let him.

"Leona.. What's wrong?"

I shook my head and kept my gaze towards the transparent blocker to my happiness. The wind from his lungs had escaped him as I felt his eyes trickle over to me. "Baby. I promise you that I'll call you everyday and that I'll come back down to visit you next week-." "Why can't I come with you?" "Because." "Because why?" "You know the policy, babe.." "Fuck the policy!" I mumbled. "What'd you say?" "You heard me." I crossed my arms and huffed as I sunk down even lower into my seat.

"Babe.. You know I wish I could take you with me. But.. The truth is that I truly can't. Do you know why?" "Ye-." "And it's not because of that 'Stupid God Forsaken' Policy, as you would say it." He had grabbed my attention with his words and I let myself turn to him.

"Then why?"

He smiled as he reached for my face. His lips parted as he came closer to mine. The silence was chilling. Though I didn't move to shiver at the cold, but to his touch when his arms wrapped around me. His hands began to travel to his jacket that I was wearing and under my shirt.

My eyes pierced open after that.

His lips then began to move from my lips down across my cheek and to my neck. It was now my turn to let the wind escape from my lips. I could feel his chilling hands moving up higher and higher until he was touching my girls. "Hoseok.." I bit my lip and clutched his arm. His lips then moved back up to meet mine and then down to try and give my girls a peck. "Hoseok!" He stopped and looked at me. My face, a bright tomato as he greeted me with a grin before kissing my cheek.

"That's why."