I'm In Love With You

Chapter 7

I'm In Love With You | Chapter 7

To love, to have lost-
to embarrassment, to stupidity in vain.

Nathan's POV

Well after literally telling me that I was a piece of shit, Ariel, waltz out of the room. Was I angry? Hell yeah, I was more than angry, I did feel a lot of emotions and I wasn't sure, how I was supposed to feel about that. I couldn't even sleep. all thanks to her highness, Miss. Ariel Rhett. Why do women think that they can do whatever they want? say whatever they please, I mean I didn't really ask her anything, why couldn't she just let things be, why did she have to butt in with all her logic when the way things were, was just fine.

This is what I like about Brittney- she let me be, she let me do whatever I wanted to do. there was no such thing as 'explaining myself' with her, all I needed to do was just be there, no change my ways to suit her needs. she just wanted me on the other side of the room, looking at her, welcoming her with open arms whenever she knocked on my door, being with her was easy, we have anyway known each other forever, I already knew everything I had to know about her. my parents saw it coming, my friends said they know that Brittany and I would eventually go on to date, but I guess it was just me- I like her as a person, if everything that I am and can be is shut down for two minutes, I always questioned if I could on to just have conversations with her- about life, about what I wanted to be and do- whether I even liked playing football.

Life had lately started to feel like a flux, it was only recently when Ariel had shouted at me that had forced me to think about how things were- Ariel was right, but I am not sure if I really want to be with her- she is everything I am not and I can never be, am I even ready for change? with the speed, with which things are happening in my life, will I ever be able to be with her, life with Britney was easy, it was blissful, would I want to give it up for her?

I could have her whenever I wanted to, she was mine- she looked good with me, I looked good with her. We are the high school dream come truer mean it made sense that we should be together, Brittney is smart in her own ways, she knows how to talk to people, she knows how she needs to say what she needs to say to get what she wants, she knows how to get her way, she is well put together, she knows how to deal with me, we both needed each other when high school started, while it means nothing now since we are seniors, and we are at the top of a food chain.

Ariel is like my sister- the ones that do not stir any news, they once who just exist- Ariel lurks in the corner, hiding away. the spotlight that she avoids, is the spotlight Britney thrives on- how could anything possibly be- I decided that it was better in the interest of everyone if I simply forgot what happened between me and Ariel, there was no way we could date each other- Ariel is great, I am sure she is a wonderful person but I don't think she is for me.

"If you're done day dreaming, Princess Diana, the grass needs to be-" before I could sense what was happening, I heard Coach Kurt, howling from the sides of the benches.

I didn't realise I was the only one left on the field, I knew coach Kurt was looking at me keenly, his hands were on his waist. if I didn't move my legs fast, I knew he would mind throwing his water tumbler at me. I ran back as quickly as I could, I didn't feel like talking to anyone. I got to the dressing room, quickly took a shower, changed back to my regular clothes, threw my football clothes, my shoes, the towel, back in my bag , kept my helmet back in the locker and rushed out as soon as I can.

Xavier tried to stop me, he had been my best-friend since I could walk and talk, we had pictures in diapers together, sitting on our mother's lap by the pool but I ran out like there was a fire in the locker room. I hated myself, I needed to distract myself, I needed to do something, thinking about Ariel and what she had said made me want to throw up. I had not even eaten anything all morning.

"Hey man," I knew Xavier had followed me, "what is up with you- why are you in such a rush today?" He asked and he bent down, put his hands on his knees and started to breathe heavily.

"You better build up that stamina if you want to play forward in this season, Coach wouldn't even let you appear for the trails like that man,- what is up with me? what is up with you?" I side eyed him, and continued, " I don't feel well today, do you want to grab something to eat at the Deli? I could use some good breakfast right now."

He nodded and we started walking towards my car. Deli was one of my go to spots for any sort of meal post games, they served the best waffles, burgers with fries, onion rings yum, thinking about it made my stomach churn.

We threw our bags in the back seat and I resisted the urge to drive as fast as I could, Xavier kept talking how the coach and how he had been behaving, the things that he was doing, how who would be sitting on the benches this year. I just hummed as when required. I parked my car and as I opened the door, the bell chimed and I couldn't believe who was sitting at the Deli- Ariel.

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Author's Note
Hi, I have begun writing again. it feels weird- I haven't written in the longest time. Please let me know what you think, I will try to update twice a week. thank you for your patience.
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