When I went to write this part for the first moment, I had accidentally saved a blank draft and I thought this piece was going to be my hundredth, and I was very prepared to throw a party like I did for a thousand reads (one singular person showed up, it was fun (hey Nickel if you read this)) but I'm disappointingly only on the 99th. Bleh. Also, hej till min två Svenska läsare.
Here is all of my weird quirks and my flaws, because I'm way too honest to people I don't know.
1. I ramble way too much about things that no one else likes and no one else will ever like I need to stop doing that, sometimes I can see the light draining out of my friends eyes when I talk about Shinedown I'm sorry friends.
2. I tap and hum and mildly sing at every moment and it's never ending. I try to stop myself, because I know it's annoying but I literally cannot.
3. I always have to do stuff with my hands, and that's why I always do really weird interpretive dances with my arms, and I click a lot and I do thumbs up a lot.
4. I constantly check my phone which seems like I'm ignoring people but its just so I know if my parents or anyone have tried to contact me because I'm paranoid that someone's died everyday.
5. I touch my face and my hair a lot. I really don't know why.
6. I will flaunt every good aspect of myself at every possible moment just because it's a good aspect of me, and I haven't had good aspects for a very long time.
7. I can't keep a conversation up and if you've ever had a conversation with me I'm very sorry.
8. I have social anxiety, generalized anxiety and panic disorder so I'm always worrying about something and I'm constantly anxious and shaky.
9. I change subjects a lot and I tend to dominate conversations even though I can't keep them up.
10. I constantly call myself bad things, which frustrates my friends.
11. I have a lot of scars on my arms, that completely coat both of them and sometimes I can sense my friends are uncomfortable with seeing them but I don't cover them up.
12. I am completely co-dependent but if someone tries to help me out, I act very annoyed.
13. No one can really tell how I feel.
14. I complain a lot and hold grudges.
15. I say I can do things, and sometimes I literally cannot actually do it.
16. I lie a lot. By a lot I mean way too much. Not to people close to me, but to others.
17. I have no hope, and bring conversations down.
18. I am the most indecisive person you will ever know, like someone could ask me: tea or coffee? and I'd be stuck for hours. Even though I love coffee much more than tea.
19. I cannot pronounce things. Like I really just can't speak.
20. I swear a lot, and my brain messes up and sometimes I start to speak a mixture of English, Swedish and German.
You all definitely needed to know 20 of my flaws okay.
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