"Kya apko sach me koi farq nahi padta Raman? Kya sachmuch hamare beech kuch nahi badla?"
she sat contemplating.
"Samajh nahi ata kis bath pe vishwas karun? Us pyar par jo kal rath apki ankhon me nazar araha tha ya us nafrat pe jo apki ankhein aaj ugal rahi thi? Kal apki bathon me chupe us Iqrar par vishwas karun ya aaj ke inkar ko qubool karloon? Aisa kya hogaya jo aap ne mujhe ek hi pal me paraya kar diya?"
she was not able to decide.
"Kaisi duvidha me daal diya hai Raman aapne! Mai apko apni dil ki bath bataun ya nahi? Kya aap meri bath sunkar mere paas rukoge ya phir mujhse aur door chale jaoge? kuch samajh me nahi araha ke mai kya karun"
She felt helpless.
"Par mai aise khamosh bhi nahi baith sakti. Murugan please mujhe batao ke mai kya karun"
She prayed.
She quickly wiped her tears as something struck her mind.
"Kisi se bath kar lethi hun jo meri dil ki bath samajh sake aur mujhe bataye ke mai kya karun"
she took out her phone.
"Par kisse bat karun?
Amma aur Mummyji to pehle se hi meri wajah se pareshan hain, unhe bataungi to aur pareshan ho jayenge.
Jiju?
Nahi Jiju ko ye bath nahi bata sakti. Pichli baar Raman ne unse salah maangi thi toh pata nahi kya ajeeb salah di thi FIRST STEP ki" she laughed reminiscing the fool she had made out of herself.
"Mani se?
Par wo is bath ko nahi samjhega.
Wo to pehle se Raman ko pasand nahi karta. Use ek aur mouqa mil jayega MERE Raman ki shikayat karne ki.
Nahi usse nahi bol sakti"
She thought.
"Papaji to Raman par hi bhadak jayenge. Simmi bhi bechari apni pati ke kartooth par sharminda hai. Mihika abhi naadan hai usko nahi samajh aayega.
Akka!
Haan Akka se bath karleti hun. Wohi mujhe sahi salah dengi"
she was about to dial the number when she realised
"Nahi! Akka is pregnant. Aisi halath me unhe stress me daalna sahi nahi hoga"
"Ayyo Murugan! Ye kaisi kashmakash hai? Kisise apna dard baant bhi nahi sakti. Koi to hoga jo meri pareshani ka hal bata de"
She was trying to remember people she could talk to and simply scrolling the phone when an app caught her attention.
"Radio! Haan Radio! Radio station call karke RJ se apni problem discuss kar leti hoon. Koi na koi solution to mil hi jayega" she decided and was reminded of the night when she and Raman had fought through the radio.
She quickly tuned into a radio station.
Jab se tune karli hai duri
Zindagi hai tab se adhuri
A song that she had never heard before was playing and she could not help but connect herself to the song that was playing. It had been only a few hours since Raman had left and she was already feeling incomplete.
Tune mujhko apna na mana
Hai kuch teri aisi majboori
On hearing the lyrics, she realised that there must be something that is stopping Raman from accepting her. But what? she wondered.
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