dark light | kim jongdae

prologue

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he laid down in his bed, the fan circling above him making a shiver crawl down his spine. he turned to his left at the alarm. 04:14 am. he turned to his right and stared at the empty space and wall. the wall had many punctures and holes and the wallpaper was ripping. he wont be able to be reminded of this room any more anyway.

he missed the warm feeling he once had in his room, it was bright and warm. how blind he was to have not seen it. how blind he was to have not seen it?

he took the bus to his new school, with a massive suitcase and bag, on his back. he left his stuff in reception where he saw some of his friends' stuff that decided to come to the boarding school with him. the reception would take his stuff to his room so he walked into class with the feeling of someone following behind him, he could hear the tapping of footsteps and the subtle whispers behind him. the annoying whispers finally angered him enough to turn around, though now he wouldn't straight up punch them, he knew what happened before and could never do it again

he turned around to see a group of girls: one wearing glasses, one with extremely long hair which can only bring back nightmares, one with shorter hair. the girls pushed the one with the shorter hair out.

his expression was angry but he kept the physical anger within him. "h-hello. you must be kim jongdae, the handsome new student." she smiled shyly. "i'm kat."

he nodded, he had dealt with fangirls before. he knew maybe soon, he wouldn't have fangirls, like what happened in his old school. the fangirls were just tinker bell and he was peter pan who will find his wendy. his mind went blank, his face fell.

she was not your wendy. just tinkerbell. just tinkerbell. a special tinkerbell.

"ummmm...." the girl, who he forgot the name of, awkwardly smiled up at jongdae, who was in deep thought.

"hello." jongdae smiled back and turned off before walking to his class. he hoped his friends, from his old school, were transferred here too. he was lucky to have true friends who understood him after it happened. they stayed by his side, damn even moved schools for him.

he entered the class, all attention turned on him. he kept his head down and walked to the desk. even though the stares now were more of admiration, he can remember the stares of hatred he was once given. he caught sight of minseok and sehun next to each other sitting by the window and a spare seat next to them. sehun had his head burried in his arms likely asleep. he smiled knowing at least

"nice for you to show up. you're the reason why we're all here." minseok grinned at jongdae as he approached the two.

jongdae's smile curved the other way. it was all his fault. "i'm sorry for being a burden..." he muttered, sitting down and swinging his bag down to the ground, next to his chair.

"you do know i was joking? it's fine, we all wanted to get away from that hell of a place" minseok said with the same grin plastered on his face.

"oh..." he muttered again.

the bell rang and sehun shot up, his hair: a mess and eyes: half-open.

"w-what time is it?" he asked tiredly.

"8 o'clock!" minseok slapped his back.

the class went slowly. nothing really caught his attention plus the maths class was about something he had already learnt. he rested his head on his hand and zoned out, not letting any deep thoughts entering his brain.

the rest of the day went quickly. he was assigned to a room with baekhyun, who he was carrying up the stairs since the kid is protesting to sleep.

baekhyun woke up in his bed. "what happened? has a day passed already." he said lifting his body up from his bed. jongdae, whom he guessed was his roomate, chuckled. he looked out the window but saw no signs of a sun.

"yes, but you practically slept through all the lessons and lunch. lucky you." he said climbing in his bed.

"wait! i'm not tired anymore!"

"well i am. since your awake and i'm too lazy sort out my clothes for me." jongdae ordered and baekhyun rolled his eyes, slowly standing up.

"i'm doing this because i'm bored " he walked towards jongdae's bag.

jongdae, rested his head on his pillow. once his head landed on the pillow he forced all his thoughts out and slept.

baekhyun was quietly sorting out the latter's clothes and possessions when he stumbled on a small shoe box.

he opened it, expecting shoes but what he saw astounded him. there were 4 items in the box.

a picture, the caption: jongdeok & i. the photo was slightly blurred and dusty, the two looked very similar. the same prominent cheekbones. jongdeok was wearing an army suit and jongdae had sun glasses on, wearing normal clothes. he flipped the photo over to find a note. you broke your promise, i'll never believe in promises again. i miss you.

another picture, the caption, in bad handwriting: mummy and dady. the photo were of jongdae in the middle and his parents either side of him. he flipped it, i wish you continued to love.

the next, a heart necklace, inside the necklace was a note. sorry.

the final item, a diary, it was rather small, baekhyun opened it anyway.