Laura's Blog (unfinished)

Part 1: Introduction

7:05PM 1/3/2017
Why do we even go to school? I mean seriously, what is the point? It's only purpose is to bring me down and make me fail. I don't have many friends and don't feel like I fit in at all. The worst part of it all is the bullying.

Ella Matteston is the worst of the lot. I swear she was only born to bully me I mean do you even sleep? I know, I'm over exaggerating this whole "bully" thing but seriously I swear she's out to kill me. She is just such a prick.

What pisses me off even more is her friends. Some of them are really nice people normally but when around her they turn into monsters.

I have a cousin called Plum and she is meant to be like my sister. I used to live with her when I was younger and we did everything together. That was until I moved in with my mum and she became friends with Ella. She's still a really nice girl but when she's with Ella she picks on me and pretends that we were never friends. Sort your priorities out girl.

Then you have Rowan. I went to primary school with her and we used to be best friends however whenever she's with Ella she just goes along with her and does whatever she's told. Whenever Ella isn't around Rowan is nice to me and treats me like a friend which is the part I don't really understand.

Those are the exceptions though.

Cindy is one of Ella's friends and she is just as bad as Ella. Most of the time she is the reason that Ella even starts on me in the first place. She spreads rumors around about me and straight up lies about me.

Then there's my sister Tissel. She is just a mean girl and doesn't care about me whatsoever. I think she enjoys picking on me but she definitely isn't as bad as Ella or Cindy.

Not everyone is affected by Ella though. For example, a girl called Mary used to be friends with her but she has now changed and she is a much nicer person. Another girl called Sarah is friends with Ella but she's nice to me and doesn't pick on me like the rest.

But what am I doing? Soon as this is probably the first time you've heard of me, unless for some reason I gave you access to my blog, You probably don't know anything about me. I am now going to tell you a bit more about myself.

When my mum was 14 she got pregnant and gave birth to four children. I know that seems hard to believe and to be honest I still can't believe it myself. I've only been living with my mum and my step dad since I was 11 and I was only told about my siblings around half a year ago when my mum started talking to a social worker about "getting her children back." I'm going to talk to you about my sister's but I don't know them all that well so I may not be 100% correct.

So the first sister I'm going to talk about is Lisa. She's​ got long blonde hair and sweet blue eyes. She's around 5"7 and currently lives with foster parents. I've met her a few times and she's very kind and selfless. She puts others before herself and looks out for the people closest to her.

Unfortunately that's where the good things come to an end. Lisa has been in trouble with the police multiple times for stealing from her foster parents and she's been caught in possession of cannabis. I'm not sure what else I can say about her except that I feel sorry for her. She's a really nice girl and doesn't deserve anything she gets.

Next up we've got Emily. I've only met her once but she seemed like an amazing girl. She's smart, funny and really nice. She has merky hazel eyes, dark ginger hair tied up into a pony tail and is around 5"6. I can't really see many flaws in her since I barely know her but I did notice a tattoo on her wrist. I asked her about it but she dodged the question. I would also say she's quite shy and needs to work on her confidence.

My next sister is not as nice as the others. I've already talked about her a bit but it's Tissel. When I found out she was my sister I felt like the world was against me. She is a sheep and does everything she can to impress Ella like she has some kind of love for her. To make things worse she is scheduled to move in with me in about 2 weeks time. I don't really want to talk about her anymore except that she has dirty brown hair which is styled in a bun, dark brown emotionless eyes, a cold pale skin tone and is around 5"9.

So as I was saying, school. I have no friends and resort to spending all my free time hiding from the bullies. I mess around in class just to get attention but do they really care about me? The answer is no. Nobody cares about me. Even my mum doesn't give a shit about me.

My mum is only 28 so hasn't even cared for me most of my life and when I moved in with her a few years ago it has been complete shit. The only things she cares about is booze and fags. She has a shitty job at the local store and drinks herself to death in the evenings. She earns minimum wage and spends all she earns on booze so my Gran has to back her up and even then I'm left with baked beans and toast; when will this end? She even takes her anger out on me by hitting me and doing other things I can't even get into. I don't understand her either. She got an A in her maths gcse and she's beautiful with light blonde hair and ocean blue eyes. When she's not drunk she can actually be a good mum sometimes but the thing is she's barely ever sober. I don't understand how she always ends up with horrible boyfriends aswell I mean with those looks how does she end up with all the bad blokes. The only good guy I think she's ever been with is my real dad but she doesn't even let me see him.

It's no surprise that all of this has had an effect on my livelihood. I don't really have anything to do at home except watch Netflix and listen to Clean Bandit on Spotify. I do have a confession to make, I smoke weed. It's not that big of a deal but it really helps cope with all the stress and I know how it fucks up my lungs and whatever but to be honest I don't really care anymore. I usually steal money from my Mum to pay my dealer and I also steal her fags aswell and sell them at school. Please don't put me down as a criminal or a thief, It's just a way to cope and she does deserve it. My head of year, Mrs Perkins, thinks I should stop smoking and gives me all of these tips on how I can stop but I really don't think I can cope without them. I usually go to see my uncle and aunt about my problems which helps me get through my problems but only my uncle gives me good advice whilst my aunt just gives me things (food mainly) and is almost as immature as my mum.

Basically, my life is shit and something needs to change.