S.A.D

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Seasonal
Affective
Disorder

I don't get it
Why me?
Why not somebody else?
Why, of all season, summer?
Why, oh why?

It is when I am craving the feel of the burning sand
As it crunches beneath my bare feet
Walking to the shore near the crashing water
Under the blazing heat of the sun

It is when I let the ocean breeze envelops me
With its salty but calming air
Encasing me in a possessive way
While the sun is at its peak

It is when I dip and dive into the cool old sea
Submerged into the depths I can sink
Feeling the soft pressure unto my body as the waves dance
Rocking me like an ancient lullaby

It is when I wriggle back up to surface
Gasping a mouthful of living air
Filling my lungs with life and eyes with light
Letting the cascading water rush over me

It is when I step out of that haven, the sea
I always feel the pang of the intensity
As you stared right back at me
Glaring with mischief and jealousy

You came head on, colliding
You knocked the air out of me
Arms and legs shaking, aching
Body and mind battling, both losing

It is when I'm supposed to be fine and alive
To whom do I own the displeasure?
You barged in like you own the place
Disrespecting my ownership, all at once.

Sadly, I can't handle your mishandling me
I'll just let it pass like every year
Eventually you'll get the satisfaction
Leaving me nothing but empty and lost

S
A
D
It's me.

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