As a child, I used to wonder if he loved me.
I would sit and stare at the wall
lost in my lonely thoughts.
I felt caged in never feeling free.
Isn't that how a child should feel?
As if there was nothing to worry about.
As if everything was alright.
I would see him once in a while.
He was always at work or so I thought.
He would look at me and smile,
at that moment I would feel happy.
He would say I was his blessing,
that I was unique and beautiful.
I was five.
Months passed and I saw less of him.
I would cry, I wanted him to protect me.
To tell me I was safe.
No food, no school, no father.
I started to rebel.
I was considered a troubled child,
To everyone I was a bother.
I cried for him.
Years passed and I finally saw him again.
I felt nothing but anger and resentment.
He tried to act as if nothing had changed but I wasn't the same.
He would smile at me but it never truly reached his eyes.
Was he disappointed ?
Maybe. Maybe not.
As a child I wanted him in my life.
I wanted him to make me feel like his princess,
To make me feel loved.
Now he's gone again.
All I ever wanted was my father.
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Survival
Non-FictionJust my thoughts and poems that get inspired by my own life or those around me. check it out please! (: